ACJC Prom 2013 - Masquerade, Unmask the Night

Hey guys!

So, it has been a hell of a week after As. Went for the class chalet (which was so much fun, not to mention how much glee we all had playing cards with Darshini), got ready for prom right after that, then had steamboat with the sisters the next night, then met up with poh yin the next morning *Phew*

I have yet to confirm my spot for my job (just realised) but then the managing director has already contacted me regarding the position so I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I also had my first violin lesson in 2 months today and I found that I could play (surprisingly) decently. Since I am more free than ever before, I have no more excuses to not be practising my instruments anymore.




Anyway, as I mentioned before, this post is gonna be primarily about prom so lets get this shit on.

My prom was held at the Marriott Hotel which explains the slightly higher cost compared to most other JC proms. My mum alighted me at the pick up point and no, it wasnt directly in front of the hotel but instead before a whole bunch of shoppers. Imagine my embarrassment stepping out on to the pavement in my extra frilly dress in full view of all the other dressed down people -.-

The first person I met there was Nicole and OMG she was so so gorgeous! I walked up quickly with the intention of hugging her and TRIPPED over my heels (which were super impossible to walk in especially without the platform). But I managed to get back my balance and being the earliest two in our gang, we made our way to the second level to hobo before registering.

Speaking of which, Melly burned me in her text to Nicole, saying: Wow Theo's early!
Watcha tryna imply, dear?!

With the pretty girl ^.^ (picture's blur ): )

The super awesome door gift we received after registering. A literal key chain with a lovely note and a 5 dollar Kbox gift voucher. 

I suspect that a portion of the money we paid for prom goes into getting these things as well as the prizes for the lucky draw, they were really generous when handing out free stuff.

The gang arrived half an hour later and we went to the photo booth to get a few shots. This is how they turned out:

Not bad, huh?

The guys had to jump coz the girls were too tall xD Chae Han's face is particularly funny

We waited for everyone to settle down and the prom finally started. The food that was served was soooo good, but unfortunately many people at my table didnt seem to enjoy the dishes much..... which was a pity because those decadent dishes dont get served often. Especially the jellyfish and octopus and abalone mushroom. I decided to forego those dishes that they actually ate and just focused on enjoying the seafood haha

The best dish of the night that no one seemed to like (and which I ate more than half of)

So now comes the most important part of prom: Photos and selfies with all the glammed and gorgeous. Just choosing my fave photos and special mentions, the rest of the photos are up on facebook!

 Super loving this photo of me and Issy.

Her prom dress was 5 bucks, she hardly did any makeup except for eyeliner, didnt do her hair at all except a little hairspray, AND SHE STILL LOOKED LIKE THAT.

I spent so much effort and money but she? Effortless. Applause.

Oh, the super hot and sizzling Goh Qian. What more can I say that you cant already see?

The hair and the cutouts are especially badass. 

Speaking of badass, Clar was THE bad ass of the night, her hair was almost hot pink and had a white leather jacket thrown over her dress complete with a Chanel bag. Unfortunately I dont have a full body shot with her so I cant display the majesty of her outfit.

Full body shot of Melly and I! She looked so sweet in her dress :> 

and her hair was so thick (a jealous thin-haired girl speaking) 

My primary school classmate Kimberley! Havent interacted with her properly since the beginning of last year HAHA but we took a nice photo to commemorate our pri sch days together ^.^ 

When I saw Yingyin I was just like Oh. My. God. 0.0 

The fact that she had barely any makeup on and simple slightly teased hair just added on to the gorg factor. 

she looked SO slim and tall and the way she walked was so regal-like.

Again, another one of the girls who looked effortlessly chic.

Ok the way I described this doesnt sound so amazing but you have to FEEL and experience it for yourself to really know what Im talking about.

And yep, the amazing classmates in one shot! (Weimin's sparkly dress is so pretty lol)

So that was part 1 of prom. I didnt know that I would be having a part 2 until during the middle of dinner, Qian invited me to join her and gang to Butter Factory since Melissa Ng couldnt go. 

I initially wanted to go with Issy to Mink but I realised I didnt have an actual table so I decided on Butter Fact instead. 

Immediately after prom, the gang and I hopped on my mum's car and drove off to Fullerton. I displayed my awesome changing-in-the-car skills by slipping off my prom dress and into my clubbing one all under 2 minutes (mission accomplished :D).

Even though all of us were early we couldnt enter the club because Huihui's birthday hasnt reached yet. Honestly I think they are a little too anal about this thing coz like Hello it was only half an hour to her birthday and you expect us to wait outside? But we did that anyway and we all played a little game of truth-or-dare. It was short but pretty fun.

So here are the pictures:

Photo with the gang! Me being Melissa Ng's replacement lol 

The amazing view at Clarke Quay 

The bar with sexy lights and all 

There were different DJs in two separate rooms at Butter Fact and I definitely enjoyed the song mix by these two DJs more! A good mash of pop, old-school, hip-hop and R&B songs, and the transition from slow to fast songs was so smooth and matched everyone's dance stamina. 

 Toast to Jiahui's 18th! Happy birthday Hui Hui!!

Rawr 

We look surprisingly fresh even after hardcore dancing and a few drinks

Jia Hui and Darsh left early so only the four of us were left. We wanted to get more cocktails but the club closed really early at 3, which was a really weird closing time because number one people are just starting to get really high and number two the sun hasnt risen nor has the public transport opened so no one can get home except through cab. So the group had no choice but to hobo outside the hotel.

Exhausted but happy shot with Saumya :) 

Hobo shot 1 

Hobo shot 2 

We then walked to Macdonalds to get something to eat and saw a few ACsians from the Mink side. Some of them looked fine and dandy while others were completely wasted.

Wei Min looks darn fresh even at 4am in the morning. How on earth does she do that?

Anyway, we stayed up till 7 the next morning till we finally decided to go home. 

It was certainly an interesting experience clubbing. I finally understand the connection between the dancing and the alcohol. If we skip the alcohol and try to enjoy the music and dancing alone, it can get pretty stuffy and tiring especially if the place is extremely crowded. The lights are also pretty distracting because they keep flashing. Thus, the alcohol will induce you into a state where you are in a slight daze (but still in control of your senses) and only then can you fully appreciate your surroundings. 

As the melody ascends to the climax, the lights around are flashing, and went you let your body go and just feel the music, you will reach nirvana. Well, that's how I felt at least. 

So here are the usual OOTD details:

Outfit:

Headpiece - www.etsy.com , Beasley's Wonders

Dress - Handmade by Zhuang Tai (old lady at Ang Mo Kio), fabric from Chinatown

Heels - www.aliexpress.com

Makeup:

Eyeshadow - Naked Palette 2 (white and silver and black) By Urban Decay

Eyeliner - Hypersharp Liner by Maybelline

White Pencil Liner - NYX Slim Eye Pencil in White

Eyebrows - Colourstay Eyebrow Liner by Revlon

Lips - Matte Lipstick in Wine Not by Revlon  X  Black Label Lipstick in Extreme Red by NYX

Contacts - Freshlook in Sterling Grey

The whole concept of my prom look was 'Ice Princess'. I think after a whole life of warm and bright colours, I wanted to cool my look down a bit by working with cooler colours and thus explains the steel blue and silver/white colour palette.

It was hard for me to come out with an outfit that could really stand out from the crowd, after all, it is getting increasingly easier to obtain awesome dresses in Singapore now.

I basically took inspiration from the fifties prom dresses that were really poofy and frilly. People in those days paid a lot of attention to detail, something that many people tend to overlook or choose to forego altogether in fear of looking ridiculous. 

Being another one of those people who's afraid of looking too over-the-top, I had to find a balance between the frilliness of a lolita and the simple clean lines of the urban chic dresser.

I also looked toward ice goths for the ice-princess look, especially the makeup and outfit pieces part. I knew I definitely didnt want my outfit to be saccharine sweet and bimbotically girly, So I kept my makeup slightly darker with the purple dark red lip and the silhouette more elegant with the tea dress length without the huge pouf so typical of the fifties.

And to top off the look, I decided to get a clip-on circlet to substitute an actual tiara and princess silver glitter heels that looked like an absolute dream (but a nightmare to walk in). I personally love the repeated motif of the circlet, dainty but intricate enough to stand out.

So, how did I fare for this prom outfit?

Now I understand

Everyone's under a lot of pressure....

Family tensions arent getting any better. No matter how much I can find comfort through superficial means, it does not change the fact that things arent going very well.

Dad's behaviour getting more and more obnoxious is partly due to his ailing health as well as a business that has not yet taken off. Angry as I might be with him many times, I am extremely worried as well.

I need to start doing something.... anything. Bosses are not replying my emails regarding job applications.... wtf man. It's alright, I will not stop till I get a job.

As are almost over

It has been so long since I blogged. 

Well, it has been one hell of a month, most of it spent slogging over the books. I probably did more math in two weeks than in the entire year combined, which really says something.

I guess my papers over all were okay, but I dont think I can get As for any of them except for GP. Econs was especially horrible because I couldnt do the second case study at all (it was so bad I almost broke down in the middle of the paper)

Anyhow, I have put in my best (I know im not lying to myself when I make that statement because I really did work extremely hard) and if my best wasnt good enough, so be it. I shall just see where I can go from there.

Now that I have a bit of free time before my music exams, I am starting to get really serious about my fashion studies. Going to the Bugis has become a daily affair for me, that place has all the relevant materials that I need, (eg. the LKC reference collection, Arab street for fabrics, bugis junction for food and the street for mainstream fashion....) Every day I learn something new, something exciting, something eye opening. It is funny how just a few years ago I thought that I already knew everything I needed to know, ie. having a good eye for clothes. Now, I see how foolish that thought is. Fashion is such a big, competitive and downright bitchy industry with so many aspects to it, I really need to build a strong foundation before I can get anywhere.  

Her industry, basically. She owns it.

(Talking about Anna, you should watch the September Issue. Everyone claims that she is horribly scary and cold, but from what I saw alone, she's just not sociable.... and she reminds me of some extremely unreasonable teacher that we always encounter at school all the time. But she is such an intelligent and deadly efficient woman, its no wonder everyone fears and respects her. Even the Kaiser. 

I think her quotes are much more relevant now, much more so than those of (omg can i even say this) Chanel or Dior, because it is so much more modern and representative of the new way of thinking. A few of them really spoke to me, I will list them down below:

1.“It’s always about timing. If it’s too soon, no one understands. If it’s too late, everyone’s forgotten.”

THIS. Basically sums up the whole industry in one sentence.

 2. “Just be true to yourself, and listen as much as one is able to to other people whose opinions you respect and look up to but in the end it has to come from you. You can’t really worry too much by looking to the left and the right about what the competition is doing or what other people in your field are doing. It has to be a true vision.”

3. “Fashion’s not about looking back. It’s always about looking forward.”

I don't exactly agree with this statement, but this mentality had led Vogue to its current status and success.

Don't mess.)

 

Nowadays, Im always going to town all by myself, eating and studying alone. Even though I am always really in the zone whenever I set off to these places with a goal in mind, I'm starting to realise how lonely I feel. There is no one to talk to to share my thoughts and expand my ideas with. But I guess I'm much better off this way, I think best whenever I am on my own.

Prom's coming up, I have my accessories and shoes ready, now all thats left is the dress. Im getting it tomorrow from Zhuang Tai, I have really high expectations for it. :) Oh and I cant wait for the shopping session with Qian and Hui Hui on Friday, itll be my first time going out with them. 

Will probably be blogging about prom, till next time guys.

Oh, you think I'm an easy toy for you to play with, huh?

Oh, so you think that just by saying 'Hey Theo' after a month, that I am going to melt again and do your bidding? Did you think that it was gonna change things? Did you think that by saying 'sorry' would change ANYTHING about what you did to me and how I felt? DO YOU THINK IM EASY? 

Fuck you for telling me you liked me.

Fuck you for leaving me for another girl.

Fuck you for coming back to me when she dumped you and using me as a rebound.

Fuck you for treating me like shit when I forgave you those many, many times.

Fuck you for not appreciating anything I did for you and taking me for granted.

Last but not least, FUCK YOU for thinking that you would have a second chance, because I am long gone. 

why don't you say those pitiful words to a girl who actually gives a fuck? Because I have come to realize that your sorries are all just for show. There isn't an ounce of sincerity in them. Because when people say 'I'm sorry', they change for the better. That isn't the case for you. Sooner or later, you would just go back to your old habits. And the only reason why you came back is not because you really liked me, but because there is no one else to entertain you, keep you company, or get into a relationship with. 

I know that I deserve better, much much more than a guy who treats me like an option and is ready to leave once he finds someone more desirable. Hmm why don't you try begging for the other girl's attention since 'she left her mark on you'? You never did anything for me, never once tried to call me, never did anything to show me off, so why me?

I am the sweetest most caring girl to people whom I think deserve it. Did you know that I can be the downright bitchiest and cold-hearted when it comes to those who don't? Because pride is important to me, and those who care for me will never ever hurt it. You had your chance(s), and you destroyed them all. Not so innocent now, huh? 

Two people can play the same game, and trust me, now that IDGAF about you anymore, I play it much better than you do.

A_______ , you are one fucking son of a goddamn bitch. SCREW YOU_|_

Everything Happens for A Reason, Good or Bad / AC Baccalaureate Service 2013

Having another one of those reflective moments....

Life has been pretty mundane recently since A levels are in less than a month.
It has been a really long time since I pushed myself this hard since primary 4. After all, 12 years of education all depends on this one exam.

The loopholes and gaps are making themselves very clear to me as I am progressing in my work, which is a good sign as it shows that I am finally understanding it. This should have been the way at the beginning of the year but my procrastinating abilities have proved to be potent. (andnottomentionmusicwhichwasprobably80percentofmyJClife-.-)

This period has also been an opportunity to really get to know my friends better, since they are always around when you study.


For the times that I had been hurt.... It was probably God trying to teach me something. Things that I couldnt comprehend before, I finally understand now. Yet, I still feel appreciative of these experiences as it is through them I learn and change for the better. Perhaps to be less naive, or to know that I am deserving of so much more.



Anyway, it was finally the last day of school yesterday. I still cannot believe how fast almost two years flew by.

Scanning through the photos, I am seen smiling very widely in almost every single one of them, which just shows how big of an impact AC has made on me. The school and its people pretty much single-handedly pulled me out of my shell and showed me that there were people who actually care for my feelings and that I belonged somewhere. I was finally a 'somebody'.

All the negative sentiments I heard about AC when I was in secondary school, thank God I paid no heed to them. Now I see that it was probably derived either out of jealousy, ignorance, or just being unable to appreciate the fact that AC is just way beyond their simple minds to comprehend. (I sound so biased)

 It is astounding to see how infectious the AC spirit is, bringing so many people together. It is really hard to describe what it is exactly, and only those who have experienced it  for themselves truly understand its power. We of course have to thank Mrs Chan for letting its legacy live till today.

Thank you AC, for bringing my smile back, something which I have not seen for a very, very long time.




So now here are some photos and dedications.............. :

What more can I say that you guys dont already know? These two girls who have been by my side through thick and thin, made me laugh, seen me cry... And everything else in between. I am so, so grateful for meeting them. I was very skeptical about making as good friends as my sisters.... and they were the ones who proved me wrong. Thank you for being there whenever I needed you guys, thank you for the warm encouraging messages whenever I felt down, and thank you for bringing me something to smile about every day.

 My uber-cool econs classmates, the most real and down-to-earth people I have met. There isn't a single boring moment with them and things are always really comfortable. They showed me that it is okay to have your own opinions and even more okay to voice them out unabashedly. Even though I got some of my ideas shot down a couple of times, it also proved to me that their compliments weren't just to please me. It is hard to find such genuine people, and they have brought considerable joy into my life.

 The boys with the two photobombers behind! HAHAHA

I have made so many memories with these guys, some not necessarily pleasant (since they arent all that tactful) but in the end, they are very sweet people and class breaks wouldnt have been as much fun without them! 

I WILL BE SENDING YOU ALL OFF TO TEKONG, DONT WORRY, hopefully by then you guys will become slightly more mature and buff hehe ;) 

Firstly, my OG, who were the first people who accepted me for who I am without judging my past and made me feel cared for. You guys will be ingrained in my heart for a long, long time. Hope we can meet up soon!

Secondly, the class of MEP 2013, for all the shit that we have been through together, we have finally made it! We all have our differences but what we have experienced is the same and in the end, those moments are what connects us. 

Thirdly, the strings peeps! It was super enjoyable making music together with you guys, and I will always treasure the gossip and bull talk sessions that we have had together. I had a lot of fun, so thank you! :D

Inspiration Board

Just doing what I do best to get my mind off things...............

My inspirations for my prom outfit. You can pretty much guess what its gonna be like already.

DETAIL DETAIL DETAIL its all down to those nitty gritty parts that makes a whole difference.

Music is taking up a hell lot of time....

Still havent recovered emotionally..........

A levels is less than a month away.

WTF am I doing?

BITCH PLEASE (update)

You are just being fucking unreasonable man.

First you ignore me. Then you tell me you like another girl. Then you STILL continue talking to me like nothing's wrong.

If I dont have feelings for you anymore, then yeah we can be friends. But NO, I still do, and I am trying my so very hardest to forget. You talking to me like that, wanting to keep me by your side as a 'friend', that is way too selfish. Bastard.

Yeah I think I know who that girl is, a super gorgeous malay girl. Well, its okay if you choose her over me, I can see why as well. If thats the case, then please just continue chasing her and NOT SAY A SINGLE WORD TO ME OK? FUCKING ASSHOLE




*Update:

And you know what he said to me yesterday?

'Just because i called you hottie, you think im hitting on you?'

Well you fucking two-timing son of a bitch, out of my fucking life you go. Oh, and you came running back to me when that girl left you huh? Well look at me leave you right now. :D Karma actually helped me out right there! And patience is truly a virtue.... to leave someone at the lowest point of their lives.... what could be a better revenge than that?

You have NO ONE left by your side, and that is no one's fault but your own. Loser.

Thanks for all the memories, but now the painful ones have exceeded the happy ones.