Even if I know the word love in all languages, watch all kinds of romance movies, sing love songs and read love stories, I will never be able to experience it for myself.
Love is the most important aspect of my life. So why can't I experience it? Why not give me the chance to enjoy a relationship when so many others treat it so lightly?
It is so frustrating to see couples who dont treasure their relationship. Dont they realise how fucking lucky they are to be able to experience this? -.-
Apparently not. ugh.
Another forever alone rant. Sorry for not being able to come up with anything new guys. But im probably gonna be haunted by this fact forever, being able to give all of myself to someone but yet receiving none of it back.
Dear God-sent angel, where are you? ...............
Friday, August 31, 2012
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Differences.
The segregation of my class is getting wider and wider, bit by bit, as the year progresses.
Why is it that we can't function together in peace and harmony?
As i have mentioned in a previous post, I have become more knowledgeable about what is going on around me due to numerous connections that I have built, so it is totally natural that I have information about the so-called 'under-currents' stirring in my class. And boy, are there many.
This girl is much disliked by many people, another girl hates another girl, this group doesnt like another group, the list goes on.
Trying to stay neutral to all this is something really difficult to do, and what better way to do this than stick with those who are precisely doing that?
I really have to thank God that my closest friends in class are those who loves everybody no matter what LOL. I mean I do have close friends who add on to the gossip but my closest friends are the ones who help me stay grounded.
However, there are limits to how far I can take this, and on a fine day after assembly, yet another gossip reached my ears regarding a girl's tweet about the class, and it ignited the fire (that was already threatening to burn) in me. (oh God I sound real cheesy)
Seriously, just because you are different does not give you any right to be mean. And just because we are not the kind of people you expect normal people to be does not make US weird. It just shows how narrow-minded you are towards others. Grow up.
This also shows how important relationships are, and it is climbing up my top must-have values list. Shutting up my big mouth when I have nothing good to say about others until others mention it is a good way to keep my friends, I have learnt by now. People skills. We all need it.
I am fortunate enough not to make too many enemies in school (or so I think), and hence am able to be nice to everyone. Well, most. Not only me, but everyone else to adopt this mindset? Maybe through that, will the class become more united? I certainly hope so.
But UGH, people like you make it SO difficult. -.-
Sigh, haven't had any inspiration to blog lately, nothing interesting is happening in my life. Maybe in the near future. Till then, toodles~
Why is it that we can't function together in peace and harmony?
As i have mentioned in a previous post, I have become more knowledgeable about what is going on around me due to numerous connections that I have built, so it is totally natural that I have information about the so-called 'under-currents' stirring in my class. And boy, are there many.
This girl is much disliked by many people, another girl hates another girl, this group doesnt like another group, the list goes on.
Trying to stay neutral to all this is something really difficult to do, and what better way to do this than stick with those who are precisely doing that?
I really have to thank God that my closest friends in class are those who loves everybody no matter what LOL. I mean I do have close friends who add on to the gossip but my closest friends are the ones who help me stay grounded.
However, there are limits to how far I can take this, and on a fine day after assembly, yet another gossip reached my ears regarding a girl's tweet about the class, and it ignited the fire (that was already threatening to burn) in me. (oh God I sound real cheesy)
Seriously, just because you are different does not give you any right to be mean. And just because we are not the kind of people you expect normal people to be does not make US weird. It just shows how narrow-minded you are towards others. Grow up.
This also shows how important relationships are, and it is climbing up my top must-have values list. Shutting up my big mouth when I have nothing good to say about others until others mention it is a good way to keep my friends, I have learnt by now. People skills. We all need it.
I am fortunate enough not to make too many enemies in school (or so I think), and hence am able to be nice to everyone. Well, most. Not only me, but everyone else to adopt this mindset? Maybe through that, will the class become more united? I certainly hope so.
Sigh, haven't had any inspiration to blog lately, nothing interesting is happening in my life. Maybe in the near future. Till then, toodles~
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
All the Wrong Choices.
Everyone around me keeps saying that I am young, there is still time.
Get your degree first. You don't know how hard it is to survive without one.
You dont know how different it is between a poly graduate and a university graduate.
Get your degree at a local university instead of all those funny schools. Im not gonna pay for the rest of your education.
You have so much time.
BUT I DONT.
Why cant my parents see that I want to pursue something that I really love?
Did they see the school fees once I have graduated from NTU? how the fuck am i supposed to pay 63000 dollars all by myself????? HOW???????????
Oh, and the requirements to get in consists of A level art or equivalent. And I am doing music elective.Where does that take me? No where.
I will NEVER survive in poly, thats what my aunt says.
I know my family cares. I totally know. But they are restricting me and my freedom to CHOOSE my own future.
For how long more must I listen to my family and screw up my life?
In the future, you wont regret it, they say. In the future, you will be grateful, they say.
Am i not old enough to think for myself? I already know exactly where I want to head to, why are you making me go one fucking big round?
I want to enjoy myself. I want to have a life. I wanna travel the world. I wanna get married and have children too. My whole life isnt just based on my fucking career.
Why cant you let me establish it so much fucking earlier than make me do all this shit stuff and make me pay so much more for something that i truly love?
Well God, I leave this into your hands. What do you truly want me to do? I know it is unfair for me to shed tears, but I cant help it. I just feel like my rights are taken away from me. Feel like running away from home...... earn some money, fetch myself to classes and all that.
Fuck.
The only reason why im still listening to my parents is because I depend on them.
FUCK.
Get your degree first. You don't know how hard it is to survive without one.
You dont know how different it is between a poly graduate and a university graduate.
Get your degree at a local university instead of all those funny schools. Im not gonna pay for the rest of your education.
You have so much time.
BUT I DONT.
Why cant my parents see that I want to pursue something that I really love?
Did they see the school fees once I have graduated from NTU? how the fuck am i supposed to pay 63000 dollars all by myself????? HOW???????????
Oh, and the requirements to get in consists of A level art or equivalent. And I am doing music elective.Where does that take me? No where.
I will NEVER survive in poly, thats what my aunt says.
I know my family cares. I totally know. But they are restricting me and my freedom to CHOOSE my own future.
For how long more must I listen to my family and screw up my life?
In the future, you wont regret it, they say. In the future, you will be grateful, they say.
Am i not old enough to think for myself? I already know exactly where I want to head to, why are you making me go one fucking big round?
I want to enjoy myself. I want to have a life. I wanna travel the world. I wanna get married and have children too. My whole life isnt just based on my fucking career.
Why cant you let me establish it so much fucking earlier than make me do all this shit stuff and make me pay so much more for something that i truly love?
Well God, I leave this into your hands. What do you truly want me to do? I know it is unfair for me to shed tears, but I cant help it. I just feel like my rights are taken away from me. Feel like running away from home...... earn some money, fetch myself to classes and all that.
Fuck.
The only reason why im still listening to my parents is because I depend on them.
FUCK.
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