Friends forever. Hmm, Really?

Life in JC has been REALLY hectic, especially today, where i had barely anytime to eat. From class to Brahms room to class to Brahms room to candeck and running like a crazy woman with a gigantic heavy box in my hand before finally settling down with a big plate of nasi briyani. Why are all the classrooms placed so far apart? #bigschoolproblems :P

Anyway, today's post is going to be about friends.


The leap of the number of friends I have in Kranji compared to AC is like comparing the height of my room ceiling to a skyscraper. I wouldnt be so thick skinned as to call myself popular, but I definitely have many friends from many different areas, like my OG mates, classmates, MEP peeps and string ensem members, not to mention those from other classes in my tutorial group. Eternally grateful I am for having them as my friends, because thanks to them my social circle has expanded x10.


Ah, but there is always the famous BUT after every compliment.

 In Kranji, it was common knowledge for many people that I was somewhat infamous, ever since sec 1. After 4 years of going through the same bullshit, I had already become immune to the haters around me and held my head up high against them, but of course not without the confidence that my three darlings were never gonna leave me. Bless them <3

The three gals with the Muttons! :)

It was totally all about "haha, have all the friends you want, I have my own best friends who trust in me, and whats more i have better style than you, so you can fuck off my case if you dont like me" kinda thing. I was blissfully unaware of all the gossips and bitching going on about me or other people, because I plainly didnt care. No politics, just pure friendship and happiness.


On the other hand, I am chummy with everyone in AC. We get high together, laugh together, cry together and basically do everything together. (introducing my AC family, both old and new! :))

1SD4 Gals!

 My closest friends, 1SD4 MEPers!

My strings gals! 

Acting weird 0.0

OG mates!

 HILLARIOUS photo of frankie and yet-peng LOL.

(you see mostly only girls. I havent included the guys, there were no pics :/)

I am fortunate to make friends with somewhat popular people and learnt MANY things from them, where the bitchy stories and gossips were the best. How this guy liked that girl and how that girl is such a bitch yadda yadda yadda.

Now, the roles were reversed. It was no longer me being the topic to be bitched about. Other people come to ME to gossip!

While this is a nice feeling, it is also extremely new. The lesson of be nice to everyone when you dont feel the need to be bad had already developed in me in secondary school, because nobody would want to feel the same way I did in the past. So when some of my friends speak badly about my other friends, I'm in a dilemma at how to respond.

Friends: "She's so annoying....."
             "ARGH he's so weird and irritating!"
             "I really hate her she's so damn stuck up"

Me: "Er... hurhurhur..... but she/he's not THATTTT bad......." (inside: Jackie Chan meme)

It also led me to think: If they are like that in front of me, then what the fuck are they saying behind MY back? What if I am being criticised in the same way? The worse thing is I get influenced by the gossiping and somehow find myself disliking the person who just got condemned, although I know it's wrong. That's how gossiping works? Then I better work hard to make people like me.

Somehow, even though I got more friends in AC, I sometimes miss the times I had in Kranji where I could be myself and have absolutely nothing to worry about, because in AC, I havent yet found those few ABSOLUTELY trustworthy friends like my sisters. I mean, I could consider one of my guy friends as one of my best friends, but it will be weird if I keep on sticking to him (note: clingy)......

This brings me to the point where I have realised how lucky I am to have met my three sisters. (Thank you God) I can confidently say that we four are going to be friends all the way till we are old and feeble. They are the kind of friends whom I trust, and the main reason why is not because we get high so often together, but is that we fight with each other quite a lot.

Yes, you read that right. Well, all friends fight, but the difference between my clique and so many other cliques out there, is that when we fight, we make up straight away. We understand that it is another one of those petty fights not worth sacrificing our friendship for, and that time heals everything, and after the fight, we grow even closer together.

It is sad to see so many cliques fall apart just because 'this person doesnt like that person' blah blah blah. What I find rather amusing is that they divide into sub-cliques, almost as if they are taking sides. At first, I didnt understand it. Why cant you all forgive and forget? Then I experienced it for myself, and once again God has showed me his amazing grace by blessing me with great friends. 


If you have someone or some people like my three sisters in your life, NEVER let them go. You will regret. Deeply.

No regrets even if I Die Tomorrow.

It's another one of those days when you feel really useless as a person because you have no way of helping your loved one.

Here you are living your life so happily, oblivious to what is happening around you, or in some other cases, DROWNING in your misery and be blinded against those who are having it so much worse than you.

 Then, reality hit me. It was shocking, even dumbfounding. Thoughts came flooding through my mind: where have I been all this while? How could anyone still smile so happily after going through that? How I could even have the FACE to ask to share the pain when the hurt has already sunken in so deeply? What exactly in life am I complaining about. WHAT KIND OF FRIEND AM I?

 Now, it seems to me that I am a normal kid leading a normal life and treating it as if I was being thrown in the fiery depths of hell. Dramatic, I know. But that's how we have all been anyway, making a mountain out of a molehill. What are my problems? Unable to find love, or feeling left out (although I know that's just me). What are my problems, compared to someone who *censored for privacy reasons*? (time to embark on a cheering friend up mission >:))

Which brings me to the person I am ranting about today. You complain that your boyfriend doesnt love you, doesn't care about you etc etc. Now we all know that you have problems, you have been announcing it to the whole wide world. Not blending in well with the school Yadda Yadda Yadda. WE KNOW. The thing is, do you even TRY to integrate yourself into the new environment? I don't think so.

He doesnt make the effort? Bitch please. Have you ever thought about what the other party is going through? Obviously not, because then you would not be bombarding him with all the twitter crap. I mean seriously, you expect him to reply you at 1 o clock in the morning? Unless he was nocturnal like I am, he would naturally be tired, just like everyone else. Why not be a good girlfriend and let him have some time alone or at the very least, some rest? You ever mentioned that you are not his whole life. Follow up on your words. Or have you forgotten them already? Maybe just don't make it all about you all the time and GIVE HIM A FUCKING BREAK!

If this continues, both of you will be ruined. Which is such a waste because I think you both should get married.

 I have no right to talk about this from a couple's perspective because I have never been a relationship before, but even between friends, we must learn how to give our all and not expect anything back, because it doesn't work when one party expects to reap benefits out of what they do for the other person. Besides, isn't that the basis of all relationships?

In the end, what is most important to me in the end is that I have made my love known to my family and friends and not to take happy moments for granted, because who knows, it may all slip away in a second.
Cherish those important to you, they are rare, precious gems who don't come easy. Hence the self-coined term: no regrets even if I die tomorrow.

Toodles~ another picture post next time!

My awesome life so far :)

HEY PEOPLE!

Just a short update on my outings with my 2 darlings.

Finally met up with Yue Ning and Yee Hwa after what seems like decades. We decided to go to the beach to hang out and catch up with each other. Pity Veron wasnt there, but shes probably gloating that Melbourne has nicer beaches anyway.

Even though we had agreed to meet at 8.30am, alas, it was not to be. Yue Ning was the only one on time while Yee Hwa overslept and I had some other things to do before I left the house, so by the time we reached our venue, it was 10.30am already.

Not gonna make it a very wordy post, just gonna let the pictures do the talking! (sorry that many of the pictures contain me in it :/)

 WOOTS first pic of the day!

On 3rd March 2012~

Stop eating the chicken when taking a pic girl!

Two models posing!

Who completely eats the dust of this supermodel here T.T

I look like a little kid hanging on to my mum.

Ya la ya la skinny hao lian la i cant look as good as you two T.T

walking.

The other side now...

Running.

Yue Ning's fave jump shot by yours truly :)

dammit. she's so fresh faced and naturally gorgeous.

Entering the water! Yue Ning totally refused to get in.

Love this shot! :) but my stomach fats OMG.... my arm fats OMGG....... nvm.

Yee Hwa is the bravest, go in so deep. Nah its just coz i didnt wanna get my skirt drenched hehe.

Theo ^_^

My fave shot of the day. Gangsta moi and Happy Ning! :DD

Enough of sunburns and back into the shade with cold drinks!

My accessories for the day! 3 out of 4 of them are new. The monroe ring was a fking rip off though it cost 4 bucks while the nicer ones were for 3.

Fail.

I have no idea how many times i have expressed my jealousy for her body. If i were a dude i would have totally dated her. Slim but not frail and has just the right amount of fat in all the right places. DAMN.

Our slippers.

I look horny 0.0 but i truly wasnt.

Trying to glare at each other and failing so miserably.  PFFFFT.

I like this! Like two different people having a mutual understanding for each other?

Shoot up in the sky!

Nice shot by Yee Hwa but my white hair is SUPER obvious.

This is dubbed 'The Fallen Angel'. Though she is anything but.

After beaching, went back to my house and slacked. Each of us did our own thing but with a sort of togetherness? hehehe. It was as if we never parted. 

LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER <3

You are so beautiful.

Before every post, I will always talk about my inspirations behind it. Today's post is particular is derived from my annoyance at someone's blog, who always only equates skinny long legged women as gorgeous. Well, i dont have anything against that, but dont you have any OTHER forms of beauty to talk about besides those that you and i can never reach? Then, i started to think deeper into the topic.

Beauty is subjective. That's what we all say.

But the harsh truth is, we define beauty as this:

 Yes. I know she's hot. I have been staring at this picture for a long time too. The lingerie's gorgeously made.

What about this?:

Dubbed the World's Ugliest Girl.

Our typical loser.

 (ok i get more and more pissed off as i stare at this picture coz its just not right, especially since i have been through this myself. FUUU)

Honestly, I myself cant even come up with a proper argument that i was intending to. Why do we naturally separate These people from Those people? Why is beauty defined that way?

I did some research on this, and here is what I have found.

"I think it's about conformity. I question whether it really is about beauty. I don't think it's beautiful. I've been in advertising for 25 years. 

And I've spent a lot of time as an art director in the studios cutting bodies and seeing bodies cut: Cherie Blair, 30lb off her hips. She probably didn't know it was happening. It's just the normal process. 

The manipulation that women live with now and have done for the last 15-20 years is just huge, and it's becoming more and more normal. It's not even artistic any more; it's certainly not beautiful. It's just machined." - Robin Smith.

and also another quote that i find meaningful:

"What I saw when I was in advertising was that if you tell a woman she's old, fat and ugly she'll spend a fortune making herself young, thin and beautiful. Tell a woman she's absolutely fine and she won't spend a penny." - Kiki Hendrick.

But when and why did the media start promoting what beauty was like? How did it manage to influence so many people? Are people ever going to value themselves like how much they are worth?

So many questions I have, but no answers. Anyone cares to share their thoughts on this, coz my brain is sorta dead now...... its a freaking 4.30am in the morning.

 

Just a few days ago, my GP class was having a discussion on what beauty is to us. Many of my friends said that beauty isnt about looks, but about your talent and your personality, or even the way you portray yourself. 

Their statements got me thinking. Really? Is that what beauty really means to you? Then why is it that those pretty girls and handsome boys are the ones that we still squeal at in school the whole time? 

And another incident that happened, the boys and I were talking about eye candy in school (no, i dont only hang out with boys, we were waiting for the other girls to come -.-). I asked the boys for their opinions on the girls who were supposedly pretty. They all said that they were extremely easy on the eye, but they act very bitchy, from the way they speak to their actions. But they are still popular! 

Oh, and a real life example where people become more popular (or at least get more positive attention) after getting more physically attractive:

He'll never get a boyfriend! 

Conclusion: Those who are more good looking ARE more successful in life, because the world is superficial, no matter how we look it. Let's all go get surgery :P

Okay, so we all know that supermodels = beauty (in this century). That does not mean that Beauty should be limited to just that. I dont really know how to explain it, but here is one good example of an imperfect beauty:

Elphaba, Wicked Witch of the West. She may have green skin, but she has a damn lotta talent in that body, able to cast spells naturally even when she was young. She also has a heart of gold (but some how her good deeds always manage to turn out wrong). Oh and she can sing her ass off too hehe.

 

I guess in the end, all of us will have to put in some effort to look good, like dieting or shopping, but let's not forget that the way we act is equally important. Sure, some ah lians are kind of good looking (even though most of them arent), but once they open their mouths, your angel image of them is CRUSHED. You wouldnt want that to happen to you, right? :)




This is an extremely long and boring post, ending abruptly here. but im still trying to dig up more information on this subject and will not stop until i can finally say that beauty isnt all about looks.