Okay, I have taken my trolling to my blog. Wonder how Xia Xue does it, she takes all her haters in so smoothly.

You seemed like a pretty nice and decent girl to me at first. What I did to you to make you so pissed off, I really have no idea, because I have never bitched about you once in the four years I have spent in Kranji. I trusted you to do the same, or, more fairly, I have always expected you to do the same.

At this point, you seem even more disgusting than my other usual haters because at least they don't hide the fact that they say awesomely horrible things about me, so I can hate them back in peace. The same can't be said about you. Only making your hate public when we have GRADUATED? I mean come on now, you could have done so much better than that.


Let me pick on the two comments you have made. The first being on your wall.

I am fully aware that it's Chinese New Year, but what's wrong with reminiscing the Christmas spirit? It is after all one of my favourite special occasions of the year. Also, as far as I can remember, Christmas trees are green and dangling with ornaments with a huge star at the top, not sleekly dressed in a mere three-piece outfit topped off with a floppy hat. :)

Limelight of embarrassment? What's so embarrassing about getting stared at, and occasionally complimented by strangers on the road that I look pretty? What's so embarrassing about hearing all your relatives sing your praises about how gorgeous I get as I grow older? It may be embarrassing to you, but definitely not to me. The angbao money increases along with the praises too so it is all good.

Oh yeah, and for someone of your, uh.............. standards, there is no way in hell are you critcizing me about my fashion statement. At least I wore red, according to the standard dress code of CNY. What about you? It seems to me that you haven't even had time to go shopping for your New Year clothes, although my parents would love you because you recycle your wardrobe. Yeah, you.

I'm sure that you are not the only extra commentator, the range of haters I got out there is huge. What else can I do but keep my head held high against bulls like you?


To the direct comment:

Well, I never said those words out of my mouth in front of anybody except for my super close friends when I want to crack a serious joke. Also, if dressing like that brings me more attention and better service from all the shops that I go to, I don't see why I can't. Besides, those ears were never meant to be taken seriously. They were bought from a freaking AMUSEMENT PARK in Korea. I thought it would be a waste to throw them aside, so why not just wear it again?

However, reasoning never ever works with people like you, because no matter how much I try to defend myself, you will still be all "you act cute act pretty see the way she pose and dress". You know what? I dont give a hoot. Tough shit :)

By the way, it seems to me that I'm not the only one that you are hating on. You troll on some other popular people too eh? Aw, don't be like that, love is what makes the world go round. It is best to treat everyone like how you are treating your boyfriend.

At the end of the day, if your goal was to make me angry and worked up with a huge response, you have achieved your goal. I was pissed. But if you are trying to make my clothes be a little more tame, or bring my confidence level down, nice try.  Oh, and for those of you who didn't like this post.....

Say what you want, say what you need, I don't give a FUCK :)

(credits to owner of the pic)

Wanted to put the troll face here but it was too XX imitation, so just found another one. 

 

Goth VS Rock Fashion.

Hi there again.

Goths and rockstars are the two groups that I have been getting my inspiration from in terms of fashion lately. I absolutely adore both of these cultures because they stay true to what they are, and somehow always comes out, at the very least, as interesting.

Some (or many) people may ask: What's the difference between goth and rock styles? Aren't they just all black clothing with silver accessories and kohl liner and black nail polish? (that's basically it for the similarities.) Well, if we look closer, there are actually many obvious differences we can spot. So let's break them down, starting with Goth.

Goth

Goths never fail to impress me with how eerily disturbing but yet sophisticated and polished they look.

In contrast to what people usually think, goths pay a whole damn lotta attention to the way they dress. Japanese gothic lolitas will tell you so.  

Look at each and every piece of their clothing, there are bound to be intricate details just splashed EVERYWHERE, from the pouf of their petticoats, the criss-crossed back of their corsets and numerous types of lace that could wrap around their dress, to the outrageously loud knee-high laced boots and stunning work-of-art accessories.

This trend is inspired from the Edwardian to the Victorian era, when women's dresses (especially in Europe, don't duh me) were huge and elaborate.  

  As can be seen from this illustration. Look at those corsets! and there are sure to be petticoats under those skirts. 

Below are a few pictures to introduce to you what gothic fashion is like.

 

Starting to see what I mean by sophistication? :) Those complex designs are always so well-put together!

All hail the goths for creating such beautiful, intricate accessories. My all-time favourite kinds. 

Wanted to buy some for prom but i didn't have the money -.-

Oh, many people also think goths only wear black, which is really not the case. I remember reading an article wear goths dress in pure white, because according to them, goths were rule-breakers after all, might as well just break the goth rules too! (love goths <3) These people are a subgroup of goths by the way.  There are also elements of red (most common), purple, silver and green (found in steampunk).

Goths are also one of the most 'english-y' people in our society because of their love for 'ancient' things, like classic literature (Edgar Allan Poe anyone?). Of course, this does not apply to all the goths.

Rock

Admittedly, I don't know the basics of rock fashion because there aren't many articles that I could find on the internet that explains how it works. BUT, out of the many pictures I see, I think rock fashion is probably based on the sentence: I don't give a damn, I'll wear anything I want and you will like it. This actually has something to do with the rockers' attitudes! They are confident and they know how to express themselves through what they wear. Don't like it? Screw it! :)

Stereotypical elements of rock fashion include: Leather, PVC, studs, spikes, tie-dye, acid-wash, rips, latex, kohl liner and crazy afro hair (a-la Slash. LOL just kidding.)

True-blue rock style from the 1980s:

 

Aerosmith and Guns & Roses.

And a little more designer kind of rock fashion:

Balmain, dunno which season this is.

And some modern fashion icons whom i ADORE:

Lua P. You have no idea how much I love her.

 And of course, my Adam baby <3

(*disclaimer: all credits to sources for the pictures) 

Unlike the always-polished look of the goths, rockers always have a sense of easiness and a kind of dont-care attitude toward what they wear and everyone else, but they always manage to look flawless. (WHY? IM JEALOUS!)

Oh, best thing about these two styles? They are NEVER out of style. :D

Therefore, the moral of the story is: Wear whatever you want, don't let others put you down!

In the Aftermath.

Hey guys.

I have been communicating with my friends, and it seems to me that many of them are feeling down because they either don't have confidence in themselves or that they are worried about what will happen in the future.
So following that, I'm going to be breaking down this post into two parts- building confidence and keeping calm.




Part 1: -Finding confidence in yourself.


This was particularly difficult for me when i was Secondary 2 because I was being bullied in school as well as on the internet. I have been called ugly and fat etc. by people in who had no time to study but had time to bully me (and they ended up doing terribly. suckers) and i had very few friends except for those who stuck by me forever.


How did I manage to pull myself out of that depression zone?


Firstly, recognise that everyone is beautiful, especially Yourself. About 90% of the girls will look into the mirror and say WTF is this, my thighs are huge, I got no boobs, my arms look like clubs, I'm acne-filled, my hair sucks and blah blah blah. This mindset happens to even gorgeous girls, and I'm like, "Babe. You are a fking size S. You can do anything you want."

                                                               

This applies to everyone, except "people like ahem". 

(the quotation marks are not wrongly placed)

This was what I did two years back. Stand in front of a full-length mirror, stare at yourself, and start saying: I am beautifully and wonderfully made, emphasising on one word for each time you say it. For example, I am..... i AM.... i am BEAUTIFULLY..... and so on. When i was doing this activity, I actually started feeling better about myself and started giggling like a crazy girl.


I was also watching the movie 'Black Swan' a year ago, and it talks about how Nina wanted to be 'perfect'. Her ballet technique was flawless, and she was so fragile, so thin, and so beautiful. But, her director was not happy with her because she was too rigid. Quotes from the movie-  

Thomas Leroy: Really? In four years, every time you dance, I see you obsess, getting each and every move perfectly right. But I never see you lose yourself. Ever. All the discipline, for what?
Nina Sayers: [quietly] I just want to be perfect.
Thomas Leroy: You what?
Nina Sayers: I wanna be perfect.
Thomas Leroy: Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go. Surprise yourself so you can surprise the audience. Transcendence. And very few have it in them.
[Nina's watching Lily dance in rehearsal when Thomas comes up behind her]
Thomas Leroy: Watch the way she moves. Imprecise but effortless. She's not faking it.

Perfect doesn't mean you have to be perfect. It is in your flaws too. You need to have a sexy dark side to yourself (although be careful not to fall so deep into it). And there goes my favourite saying again: sensuality is the key to all thigns beautiful. I mean yeah, I would love to be the White Swan, if I had the looks and the body and the personality. Those are for girls who naturally act weak and are really girly and pretty. (refer to XiaXue's Cavernous Vagina post, it totally reflects what I'm trying to say here) For all the other not too good looking and size M and above girls, we have to find our own sensuality in order for others to see it.

 Feel it in you.

After I felt wonderful, I started to look the part. My wardrobe used to be filled with T-shirts and jeans and sneakers. After taking a good look at my wardrobe, I decided I had enough of it. I grabbed a copy of Seventeen and started to shop for skirts and dresses and heels. *feels like a supermodel* Guys should do the same thing, although I know naught about men's fashion.

Everyone can look like this, with confidence and a little effort.

(btw, all the designs here look RAD.) 

 Thirdly, believe in and create opportunities for yourself in whatever you want to do. People might tell you: Nah you can't do it coz you suck. or no, you will never be successful if you choose this course. Tell them to suck it! It is your life, you choose how you live it. Of course, it is always good to accept constructive criticism, but never ever listen to dickheads who always make fun of you and put you down. Once you say something like "yes! I am going to do this and nothing can stop me!", really, who can? With that mindset, you will naturally work harder and try to meet more people related to what you want to do. 

 

*tips for those who are in the classical music circle, you HAVE to make friends with the big-guns in the industry, whether you are in band or with the srings, because the music scene is Singapore is so tiny, and everyone is inter-related to each other. I have already made some acquaintances! 

Oh, and for those whose parents are the ones bringing you down, try to learn to compromise. (tip learnt from Veronica) Of course, as Asians, we can't disobey our parents. So why not try to strike up a deal with them? something that goes: I'm going to JC, but I will NEVER EVER TOUCH SCIENCE IN MY LIFE EVER AGAIN MUAHAHA, and I get to choose my own course in University, or something along those lines. That's the tactic I used against my own parents ^.^ 

Part 2:- Keeping calm in the Aftermath.

If you did not do as well as you should have for your exams or failed some interviews, get over it! There are always so many more opportunities in the future. Just because you got 20 points for your L1R4 doesn't mean it's the end of the world, just take it as the much longer way out to your student career. If you feel regretful, hold on to that feeling and strive to work so bloody hard, you will never feel it again.If you fail an interview, sign up again a year later, bigger and better than ever with some upgrades and extra bulk, or search for other options that are similar to the previous interview. :) I'm sure you will find something suitable to your liking......

Of course, getting over your failures are easier said than done. Like how i got a merit for my theory exam and got beat up by my parents, failing the audition with Lynette Lim, getting the suckiest results in class for the whole of sec 3 and making my piano teacher so angry she didn't want to teach me anymore. It is painful, and it is difficult. Always have friends and family close who can comfort and support you throughout your tough times, and take baby steps to change your strategy towards success (you can't fly straightaway). Once you succeed.....

We'll sing: We are the Champions, my friend! (complete with Freddie Mercury meme :) ) 

Some families are going through difficult times, like illnesses or financial problems. As for me, I have been there, done that, and still going through it (financial part, not illness)! It is heart-breaking to see your mum get cervical cancer when you are just primary 6. With the chemotherapy and the surgery costing tons of money, it was really hard for my Dad to get by. I remember crying so bad because there was a possibility of my mum just slipping away right beneath my fingers. 

How did I get by? Well, by praying to God really often. It gives me a sense of relief, because I know He is going to save my mother :) Also, I tried to make my mum as un-busy as possible by being more independent. The family looked toward the future with incredible optimism, which I believe is the key to overcoming these obstacles. 

As for the financial part, well, I can't give advice on this because I need some myself. My obsession with material things is incurable. For great advice, go to Veronica Lee, she saves so much money every month, I feel so jealous. Anyway, I guess the trick is to not spend too much on useless stuff..... oh yeah. Finding a job helps too!

 The ideal happy family - the Addam's family >:) 

TOO FUNNY.

 So after such a long and naggy post, I guess my point is to stay happy, even if it may seem impossible. It is good to let the tears come flowing down, but right after that, try to see the rainbow and laugh. Happy and gay~ LOL. After all, laughter is what makes the world go round. (read 9gag, it helps) When you are happy, things around you won't seem that bad, and you will definitely feel more amazing. Amplify your strengths, recognize your weaknesses, believe in yourself, plaster a smile on your face, screw the haters, and we are ready to ROLL! 

 Oh yeah, and to those mean girls out there, you are bitching about other people, but what makes you think they are not bitching about you? ;)

Theo signing off, leaving you with-

Song(s) of the day: No Boundaries - Kris Allen/ Adam Lambert

  Aftermath- Adam Lambert

I wanna see you Strut!

Okay, the shoe post came earlier than expected. It just so happened that my mum had her camera with her so I grabbed the opportunity to take as many shoe pics as possible. wekeke.....

As I was saying on facebook (the budget barbie video can be found on my page), we should never buy shoes that cost $30 and below (or flats/sandals that cost $15 and below). Why? I don't mean to be all so high-maintenance and whatever, but cheap shoes come apart REALLY easily, and most of them look not too good.

For example, our school shoes! Most of the school population buy their shoes from BATA, which everyone knows stands for Buy And Throw Away. They cost around 20 plus bucks for each pair. Right after 3-5 months, the shoes are as good as goners, and we would have to spend more money buying a new pair of shoes. This cycle may repeat throughout your whole school-uniform life, if you don't buy the right kind of shoes.

On the other hand, if we buy shoes from brands like Converse, that cost like $50 for a pair of plain white old shoes (like in the picture shown below), if well taken care of (like not destroyed by playing too much soccer LOL), they can last for at least a year to about two years. maybe even your whole secondary school life, but they will become really dirty.  Doing the math, I think everyone will save a lot of money if we just buy one pair of shoes for 1.5 years than 3 pairs.

The shittiest looking pair of Converse, I know. I haven't washed it for months. 

The most important part of buying more expensive shoes are that the soles dont fall apart. You will be so grateful that water doesn't seep in through the holes of the soles when it is raining. (It's really gross.)


I'm going to share my shoe collection today, and maybe share personal opinions on why they are the "ideal footwear collection". :P 

Tada! My beautiful shoes! Hehe. 

So this is my shoe collection, consisting of sandals flats and mostly heels. Now that i think about it, maybe its not exactly an ideal collection, because all my shoes except my converse kill my feet in one way or another. I'm also missing many brown shoes, and some pointy toe heels like Dita Von Teese. *hint shopping time* But, these shoes are for practically every occasion, like grab and go. This does not apply to the working class. You guys have to buy some black 3-inch pumps for work.

ANYWAY.

My black booties from Korea. They always appear in Japanese magazines without failure for two years straight, and they are still very popular among the trendsetters. It is so easy to match. Just throw on some jeans and a loose top or something and you will still look awesome. ^.^ More importantly, they look good.

Wedges. The difference between expensive ones and cheap ones are that they kill your feet WAY less. I ever bought espadrilles from Cotton On that looked really awesome and cost very cheap, but the cutting of the shoe leaves your soles aching in less than an hour. And the pain is intense, like someone's stretching the muscle/bone thingy in your foot. I got those wedges above from New Look, twice the cost, but half the pain. They also don't spoil as easily. (btw, my cotton on wedges were passed down to Yee Hwa.)

Next, moving on to flats. (or almost flats.) For shopping with the girls?

 These shoes really remind me of Tinkerbell of Peter Pan. They are so dainty, filled with glitter and topped with cute bows, what more could a girl ask for? They feel good to walk on, merciful on your feet and they actually look good. (btw, they were on sale for 25 bucks MUAHAHA. The normal price was about 37.)

*Tip for choosing nice flats (based on personal experience): The embellishments should not overwhelm your whole foot till it looks like you are carrying boulders on your toes. simple plain black flats are the best for your wardrobe basics. Oh, and canvas flats are kind of overrated. Why do people think they look good?

 My newest addition to my shoe collection. Really, instead of buying slippers or flip-flops that look the same whether they cost 5 dollars or 60 dollars, why not buy a nice pair of sandals? Throw them on when you want to go to the beach, or when your heels are killing you. I love the corsarges.

And moving on to the 4-5 inches heels! My favourites for formal occasions.Wedding dinner, date with boyfriend or whatever, these are the best.

Burgundy heels as seen on Yue Ning! Probably the highest shoes I own. Honestly, I inherited it from Yue Ning since she was never going to wear it again. I think every girl should have a pair of sky-high heels in their wardrobe, and by sky-high i don't mean 4 inches. The colour is so gorgeous too.

And, the pair of shoes that have served me so well during prom. I didn't tie it well then so it could have looked much better than it did. They look high but in reality because of the platform i feel like i'm walking on 2 inch heels. I know I know, those red soles are a total copy of Louboutin, but it looks nice and every shop is doing it anyway. (i'm such a hypocrite, saying that i would never buy fake stuff but here i am buying something that is almost imitation.-.-) 

Finally, we have.......... the knee-high boot!

Need i say more? Those bears sticking out are helping the boots to stand. I read in a book that Audrey Hepburn herself said that knee-high boots are essential. Never knew that huh? :) I walked for one week straight in these through the streets of Apgujeong, Myeongdong and Dongdaemun. Very comfortable, and made of leather, so it will last for about 10 more years. All knee-high boots are visually pleasing, but it is better to invest in some better quality ones, since it will forever stay in your wardrobe anyway.

So that's it for my shoe collection. For recommendation of shoe books, here is one that i think is really useful: 

Change your Shoes, Change your Life.

After all, they are the ones that take you to so many different places.

Also, read the original story of Cinderella by the Grimm Brothers! It talks about how Cinderella actually creates her own opportunities to get those shoes, from the wooden shoes she was made to wear. Truly inspiring. 

Oh yeah, my fave blogshop for shoes is www.hauteurbanstyle.com :) 

OK! I'm done here. I hope you guys will buy nice shoes. Hehehe. Leaving you with another song by Adam.

Song of the day: Strut - Adam Lambert.
 

New beginnings for 2012.

Omg, it's 2012!

Without me even realising it, 16 years of my life has gone by in a flash. Secondary school life is already over? Unbelieveable. x.x

I still can remember the time I first stepped into a school. Sherwood Kindergarten that is. I think I screamed and cried like every other annoying kid, but i was also pretty vigilant in trying to fight my way out through the door. Giving up wasn't an option until the teacher locked it and I had no way of getting out. (Oh, the days when my only worries were escaping class haha)

Primary school life was difficult, with the most significant memory of  being called 'lame-o' by this american classmate i had. That bitch. Try calling me lame now with direct eye contact.  I was also exremely lazy when i was primary 6, which explains the terrible score of 236 when the rest of my classmates are getting into elite schools with scores of 250+. How humiliating.

So, I landed up in Kranji Secondary School. It has been the craziest rollercoaster journey i have ever had. I think God put me in the school for a reason, because I have learned a ton of skills and life lessons studying there. Thank you KSS for making me into the person I am now :) Oh yeah, and I also have four (not only you three) very special friends that I will keep for years and years to come. <3 

Then just yesterday, I was sitting in the hall, desperately and anxiously waiting for my O level results to come out. Tan Hwee Pin did not ease any of the students' anxiety by talking nonsense and reciting weird poems, but I'm sure she meant well. (-.-) All the top scorers were called up on stage *a big congratulations to them! :)* before the others could get their own results back. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach when I went up to take my results from the teachers. I took the slip slowly from them and............. As and Bs and my L1R5 is............. OMGOMGOMG AHHHH!!!!! And you know, the jumping and screaming and hugging Yee Hwa kind of thing? Yeah. Most of us were extremely happy, so it was a day of celebration for us.

Talking about 2012, it is supposedly the "Doomsday" for the whole world. Some people believe it, some just dont give a damn. As for me, I'm cool with anything that happens. What is most important is that I treasure the time that I have left with everyone that I love. And I also think that making resolutions is not too crazy as well, so, my resolutions for 2012 are:

1. Hand in my homework on time.
2. Go to church more often.
3. Practise piano everyday for at least 30 minutes.
4. Save at least 20 bucks a month.
5. Not indulge in my guilty pleasures of fashion when it is not the holidays.
6. Make new friends. Good friends.
7. Buy 'For Your Entertainment" by Adam Lambert (it's freaking sold out everywhere, i can't find it!) 
8. Buy the album 'Trespassing' by Adam Lambert. (I should stop my current fetish with Adam. It is really not healthy, plus it is distracting. (but his voice is like therapy! :( ).)
Yepp. That's about it. For now.

I have already thought about what subjects i want to take in JC, and i have been stuck between English elective and Music elective for about 6 months. I have always wanted to pursue Music but ever since i got shot down by dear Lynette Lim, I have given up my dream of becoming a music teacher. BLEHH. BUT, just when I changed my mind to English Linguistics, the O level result slip says that my Music is an A1 while my English is an A2 (which means that my chances of doing Linguistics is cut by 50%. probably more.).
HOW? Brown cow.  That's what my dad will say. Sheesh.

OH YEAH! I was wondering if I should have a little nasty section at every end of my post, because some people really get on my nerves sometimes. Not because of petty little insults like they hate me because I'm fat (coz I am fat, i recognise that) or that I'm retarded, but because they really ARE asses, especially toward my friends. I mean seriously, the talk-behind-back-while-acting-all-nice-and-innocent-in-front-of-her thing is not cool.

See? Adam agrees with me. 

(omg sorry for misusing this Adam and Glamberts >.<) 

Anyway, my old blog has been taken down because I havent been updating it for so so long. New year, new beginnings and new blog, right? :)

*I hope to post up a Shoe Wardrobe post soon. Elaborate more on why cheap shoes are not ideal in our wardrobes. It all starts with our school shoes.

Song of the day: Time for Miracles - Adam Lambert.