Hey guys, just a shirt update.
I'm glad to say that I have finally found someone I like and who feels the same way about me :)
I was really surprised because even though the signs were there, I wasn't expecting anything to come out of it. (Read the signs wrongly before, didn't wanna make the same mistakes again)
He's the first guy to make me realise what truly liking someone means. It isn't about what the other person can do for you, or how being with them can elevate your status, but more of what you can give to the other person and cherishing the moments we have together.
All my past crushes were all about me fantasising about the possibility that we could get together some day and have an amazing relationship. Little did I realise that I was holding unrealistic expectations for them and for myself. Now that I'm finally experiencing mutual feelings, I'm starting to see how different it really is.
However, I'm also beginning to see why pretty girls don't really like it when people call them hot or pretty and get confessed to based on that. It is as if the guy is unable to look beyond your looks and body, and once that is gone, he would move on to the next one and not care about you anymore. That is my current fear, and I hope it doesn't happen.
I guess the way to go about this is not hold any expectations and take things as they come, that way, no one will get hurt.
He's now gone for a week, it hasn't even been a full day yet and I already miss him. Sigh, Theodora B you are so hopeless.
Love you guys, best of luck for your exams, it's tough but I'm sure y'all can do it! :) ciao~
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
50 Facts About Me
Doing this because I'm sick of work and also probably because I am narcissistic.
1. My name is Theodora Boo Lin Lin
2. Birthday: 2 Nov 1995
3. Horoscopes would be Scorpio for Western and Pig for Chinese.
4. Most common nicknames are Theo and 500 (coz of my chinese name)
5. I have lost 8kg since last year (YES!) - I feel pretty incredible now but of course I wanna lose more. Won't stop till I reach my goal.
6. I am a hopeless romantic.
7. I have a really bad sweet tooth. (in fact I can live off sweets and desserts without eating any proper food.... candy floss anyone?)
8. I am an asian tea person. I dont know why but I just think asian teas are so much more delicious than Western teas even without sugar.
9. I travel overseas a lot, about once or twice a year. It's my favourite (and most expensive) past time. :P However I havent been able to travel lately due to exams.
10. I dont have a particular genre preference of music. It is more of whether I can relate to the song or if the melody is heart-wrenching/catchy.
11. I'm a closet otaku HAHA - Prince of Tennis, Yugioh, Fairy Tail and Kaichou wa Maid Sama are my tops, in that order.
12. I often give up on my books halfway. A really terrible habit that im trying to cure.
13. I'd prefer to stay in Singapore climate than live in somewhere with four seasons, even though I love snow. (people just don't realise how miserable it can be when the temperature turns negative)
14. Biggest pet peeve - people going into the room, fart, and going out again.
15. Windows user all the way! xD
16. My most memorable trip overseas would be to Egypt, especially the cruise. The most incredible things happened there and I enjoyed myself tremendously.
17. I dont carry conversations well with people, not even with good friends, because I really have nothing to talk about. That's why I really appreciate people who ask many questions (appropriately of course), then I can answer them.
18. Tom and Jerry is by far my favourite childhood cartoon.
19. My ideal complexion would be the porcelain vampire-pale skin.
20. I have no idea what LOTR is about. Even though I watched the movie, I cant remember becuase that was about more than 10 years ago.
21. I'm nocturnal.
22. I have high alcohol tolerance.
23. My bedroom is always in a perpetual mess, no matter how many times I clean it up.
24. I'm a lippie junkie. Ever since I got into makeup my lipstick collection ballooned super fast.
25. I'm 165cm, and I love my height. It is the perfect height for an Asian imo.
26. The guys I really fall for are worlds apart from those I admire.
27. I hate blush.
28. I hate cockroaches and lizards. They are the most disgusting creatures ever.
29. On the other hand, I find Arachnids, beetles and snakes fascinating. They have a sort of regal air to them that I really admire.
30. My favourite flower is the rose (though I am not really interested in gardening)
31. I love anything that has to do with water (except drowning).
32. I used to be really afraid of 'the dark side' until I came across Marilyn Manson. That guy changed my perspective on so many things.
33. I can't stick to just one interest forever, I constantly change my favourites.
34. That being said, my passion is unchanging. Fashion that is.
35. I am very objective when it comes to judging people. I see both people's good points as well as flaws equally, regardless of whether the person is a friend or enemy, unpopular or popular (this is a very dangerous trait)
36. I mentally count the number of chews I take whenever I'm eating.
37. I stayed in the same house all my life.
38. I only use black pens to do my work. It somehow always comes out looking more professional. only under dire circumstances do I use blue pens.
39. I'm always secretly jealous of people who are naturally popular or people who have already found their significant others. Adds on to my insecurity.
40. I used to be really straightfoward to the point of being blunt about my feelings towards things, but ever since secondary school I have learnt to shut myself up when I dont have anything nice to say.
41. I really love it when karma hits those people who hurt me in the past.
42. I hate jeans and pants.
43. I fantasize about happy things all the time, thats what I usually do when you guys see me space out.
44. Mulan and Pocahontas are my fave disney princesses.
45. I still play neopets.
46. I have never had a boyfriend. #4everalone
47. Im usually lazy but become very hardworking just to prove people wrong. (or when I like what im doing)
48. I always put on a calm exterior even when Im extremely worried, upset or angry. so good that mask is even my friends are fooled. (however this mask is slowly slipping away when i get mad)
49. biggest turn on: perfectly proportioned, lean and toned bodies.
50. I havent completely given up on the human race yet ;)
ok back to work haha (I dont think anyone would even read this properly)
1. My name is Theodora Boo Lin Lin
2. Birthday: 2 Nov 1995
3. Horoscopes would be Scorpio for Western and Pig for Chinese.
4. Most common nicknames are Theo and 500 (coz of my chinese name)
5. I have lost 8kg since last year (YES!) - I feel pretty incredible now but of course I wanna lose more. Won't stop till I reach my goal.
6. I am a hopeless romantic.
7. I have a really bad sweet tooth. (in fact I can live off sweets and desserts without eating any proper food.... candy floss anyone?)
8. I am an asian tea person. I dont know why but I just think asian teas are so much more delicious than Western teas even without sugar.
9. I travel overseas a lot, about once or twice a year. It's my favourite (and most expensive) past time. :P However I havent been able to travel lately due to exams.
10. I dont have a particular genre preference of music. It is more of whether I can relate to the song or if the melody is heart-wrenching/catchy.
11. I'm a closet otaku HAHA - Prince of Tennis, Yugioh, Fairy Tail and Kaichou wa Maid Sama are my tops, in that order.
12. I often give up on my books halfway. A really terrible habit that im trying to cure.
13. I'd prefer to stay in Singapore climate than live in somewhere with four seasons, even though I love snow. (people just don't realise how miserable it can be when the temperature turns negative)
14. Biggest pet peeve - people going into the room, fart, and going out again.
15. Windows user all the way! xD
16. My most memorable trip overseas would be to Egypt, especially the cruise. The most incredible things happened there and I enjoyed myself tremendously.
17. I dont carry conversations well with people, not even with good friends, because I really have nothing to talk about. That's why I really appreciate people who ask many questions (appropriately of course), then I can answer them.
18. Tom and Jerry is by far my favourite childhood cartoon.
19. My ideal complexion would be the porcelain vampire-pale skin.
20. I have no idea what LOTR is about. Even though I watched the movie, I cant remember becuase that was about more than 10 years ago.
21. I'm nocturnal.
22. I have high alcohol tolerance.
23. My bedroom is always in a perpetual mess, no matter how many times I clean it up.
24. I'm a lippie junkie. Ever since I got into makeup my lipstick collection ballooned super fast.
25. I'm 165cm, and I love my height. It is the perfect height for an Asian imo.
26. The guys I really fall for are worlds apart from those I admire.
27. I hate blush.
28. I hate cockroaches and lizards. They are the most disgusting creatures ever.
29. On the other hand, I find Arachnids, beetles and snakes fascinating. They have a sort of regal air to them that I really admire.
30. My favourite flower is the rose (though I am not really interested in gardening)
31. I love anything that has to do with water (except drowning).
32. I used to be really afraid of 'the dark side' until I came across Marilyn Manson. That guy changed my perspective on so many things.
33. I can't stick to just one interest forever, I constantly change my favourites.
34. That being said, my passion is unchanging. Fashion that is.
35. I am very objective when it comes to judging people. I see both people's good points as well as flaws equally, regardless of whether the person is a friend or enemy, unpopular or popular (this is a very dangerous trait)
36. I mentally count the number of chews I take whenever I'm eating.
37. I stayed in the same house all my life.
38. I only use black pens to do my work. It somehow always comes out looking more professional. only under dire circumstances do I use blue pens.
39. I'm always secretly jealous of people who are naturally popular or people who have already found their significant others. Adds on to my insecurity.
40. I used to be really straightfoward to the point of being blunt about my feelings towards things, but ever since secondary school I have learnt to shut myself up when I dont have anything nice to say.
41. I really love it when karma hits those people who hurt me in the past.
42. I hate jeans and pants.
43. I fantasize about happy things all the time, thats what I usually do when you guys see me space out.
44. Mulan and Pocahontas are my fave disney princesses.
45. I still play neopets.
46. I have never had a boyfriend. #4everalone
47. Im usually lazy but become very hardworking just to prove people wrong. (or when I like what im doing)
48. I always put on a calm exterior even when Im extremely worried, upset or angry. so good that mask is even my friends are fooled. (however this mask is slowly slipping away when i get mad)
49. biggest turn on: perfectly proportioned, lean and toned bodies.
50. I havent completely given up on the human race yet ;)
ok back to work haha (I dont think anyone would even read this properly)
Friday, May 31, 2013
Life so far / Inspirations
Yo guys just a short update :)
Exams (or at least 3/4 of it) are freaking FINALLY over!! I am so amazed that I managed to survive this week, especially with H3 and free compo due and three papers (lit and music together zzz).
I'm gonna go to the gym more often during the June hols coz I havent been working out and I feel so fat x.x
I went into a semi-depressed state (like actual depression, not those emo for no reason kind) in my last post and it lasted for a good two weeks before I managed to recover the most part of my sanity before the exams, which is really great. All credit to my friends, because without them then I wouldnt have had the support nor the reason to continue smiling, so thanks guys :) (you know who you are)
June is gonna be a real busy month even though there are no real lessons. Prep for artikulation, studies and the numerous concerts (omg my money fly) are enough to fill the month, not to mention the various outings that MIGHT happen haha.
Just had the awesomest talk with Goh Qian this afternoon about the most random stuff, never knew we had that much to talk about! She introduced the hot and cold fry concept to me, gonna use it very often in the future HAHA. Love that girl.
It is unbelieveable how almost half a year has gone, and my life as an ACJC student will come to an end just like that. I have SO MUCH to be grateful for after entering this school, I dont wanna let it go so soon T.T more on that later when the time ACTUALLY comes. :(
Here are my current inspirations for this year. If you follow me on instagram you would have already seen this, but I wanna elaborate a little more as to why these nine special ones are chosen.
These following people are so confident of themselves and individualistic and most of all, successful. (I'm striving to emulate or develop every single quality they have right now, and they are my driving forces behind not only my determination for As but also my personality, image and even my future):
1. Dita von Teese - femininity, sensuality, glamour, individuality, multi-faceted, independence, strength, elegance.
2. Jaden Smith - talent, determination, perseverance, sensibility, maturity (that all teens should have, myself included)
3. Adam Lambert - open-mindedness, talent, humility, determination, individuality, strength, warmth, charity
4. Chanel Iman - charity, beauty, talent, success. (well basically most models are like that but Chanel is one of the youngest supermodels in the industry and plus she is black and faces racism A LOT. to become that well known in such a short amount of time is an amazing feat)
5. Coco Chanel - Elegance, sophistication, individuality, milestone, timelessness, forward-looking, modernity, feminism, creativity.
6. Matt Bomer - Beauty (HAH), bravery, success
7. Sophia Amoruso - Success, entrepreneurship, individuality, forward-looking, intelligence, ruthlessness.
8. Yunho - humility, perseverance, determination, charity, strength, warmth.
9. Marilyn Manson - open-mindedness, individuality, intelligence, creativity.
10. (special mention) Angelina Jolie - Bravery, charity, sexuality, kindness, success, talent. (didnt think of her initially because I dont really follow hollywood actors/actresses)
As you can see they have many overlapping qualities. I like many seemingly 'different' types of artistes/public figures, but in the end they all somehow embody the same kind of qualities that I strongly believe in. I'd probably axe out Matt Bomer and replace him with someone else though (any suggestions?), coz I realised that the main reason why I admire him is because he is so incredibly good looking.
Who are your inspirations? I really wanna know, so maybe posted it up on your blogs or post a comment down below so I can read it :)
Exams (or at least 3/4 of it) are freaking FINALLY over!! I am so amazed that I managed to survive this week, especially with H3 and free compo due and three papers (lit and music together zzz).
I'm gonna go to the gym more often during the June hols coz I havent been working out and I feel so fat x.x
I went into a semi-depressed state (like actual depression, not those emo for no reason kind) in my last post and it lasted for a good two weeks before I managed to recover the most part of my sanity before the exams, which is really great. All credit to my friends, because without them then I wouldnt have had the support nor the reason to continue smiling, so thanks guys :) (you know who you are)
June is gonna be a real busy month even though there are no real lessons. Prep for artikulation, studies and the numerous concerts (omg my money fly) are enough to fill the month, not to mention the various outings that MIGHT happen haha.
Just had the awesomest talk with Goh Qian this afternoon about the most random stuff, never knew we had that much to talk about! She introduced the hot and cold fry concept to me, gonna use it very often in the future HAHA. Love that girl.
It is unbelieveable how almost half a year has gone, and my life as an ACJC student will come to an end just like that. I have SO MUCH to be grateful for after entering this school, I dont wanna let it go so soon T.T more on that later when the time ACTUALLY comes. :(
Here are my current inspirations for this year. If you follow me on instagram you would have already seen this, but I wanna elaborate a little more as to why these nine special ones are chosen.
These following people are so confident of themselves and individualistic and most of all, successful. (I'm striving to emulate or develop every single quality they have right now, and they are my driving forces behind not only my determination for As but also my personality, image and even my future):
2. Jaden Smith - talent, determination, perseverance, sensibility, maturity (that all teens should have, myself included)
3. Adam Lambert - open-mindedness, talent, humility, determination, individuality, strength, warmth, charity
4. Chanel Iman - charity, beauty, talent, success. (well basically most models are like that but Chanel is one of the youngest supermodels in the industry and plus she is black and faces racism A LOT. to become that well known in such a short amount of time is an amazing feat)
5. Coco Chanel - Elegance, sophistication, individuality, milestone, timelessness, forward-looking, modernity, feminism, creativity.
6. Matt Bomer - Beauty (HAH), bravery, success
7. Sophia Amoruso - Success, entrepreneurship, individuality, forward-looking, intelligence, ruthlessness.
8. Yunho - humility, perseverance, determination, charity, strength, warmth.
9. Marilyn Manson - open-mindedness, individuality, intelligence, creativity.
10. (special mention) Angelina Jolie - Bravery, charity, sexuality, kindness, success, talent. (didnt think of her initially because I dont really follow hollywood actors/actresses)
As you can see they have many overlapping qualities. I like many seemingly 'different' types of artistes/public figures, but in the end they all somehow embody the same kind of qualities that I strongly believe in. I'd probably axe out Matt Bomer and replace him with someone else though (any suggestions?), coz I realised that the main reason why I admire him is because he is so incredibly good looking.
Who are your inspirations? I really wanna know, so maybe posted it up on your blogs or post a comment down below so I can read it :)
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Buck up, Pathetic One.
Today must be the shittiest day of 2013 that I have had so far. All negative emotions came crashing upon me at once and it is not at all pleasant to experience.
Why is it that the person who's smile and laugh that I loved and appreciated so much, along with his amazing friends, suddenly reflect the sneers and sniggers of the people who made my life miserable in the past? Maybe it's my fault that he treats me this way, because now that I think about it, I have been acting in the exact same way to him, but the only difference is mine was out of joy and fear. Liking someone who treats you this way is really painful. It happened to me before, but I guess my heart will never learn.
How I wish I had a longer attention span. Or at least have the ability to bullshit my way through things. What happened during class today was just outright humiliating. I just gave everyone the impression that I was some mute dumbass who is awful at her work. OF COURSE no one would like anybody who is a dumb and plain person with no particular special quality whatsoever.
What I used to look forward to so eagerly in the past, I now dread.
My terms results are wayyyyyyyy far from ideal. I mean, 29/100 isnt justifiable,even if its a music paper. 17/55 for econs even though I studied like heck for it isnt very encouraging either. It just makes me question myself: What the fuck are you doing?
It is time to prioritize properly, since what had shone the path for me has dimmed considerably.
Why is it that the person who's smile and laugh that I loved and appreciated so much, along with his amazing friends, suddenly reflect the sneers and sniggers of the people who made my life miserable in the past? Maybe it's my fault that he treats me this way, because now that I think about it, I have been acting in the exact same way to him, but the only difference is mine was out of joy and fear. Liking someone who treats you this way is really painful. It happened to me before, but I guess my heart will never learn.
How I wish I had a longer attention span. Or at least have the ability to bullshit my way through things. What happened during class today was just outright humiliating. I just gave everyone the impression that I was some mute dumbass who is awful at her work. OF COURSE no one would like anybody who is a dumb and plain person with no particular special quality whatsoever.
What I used to look forward to so eagerly in the past, I now dread.
My terms results are wayyyyyyyy far from ideal. I mean, 29/100 isnt justifiable,even if its a music paper. 17/55 for econs even though I studied like heck for it isnt very encouraging either. It just makes me question myself: What the fuck are you doing?
It is time to prioritize properly, since what had shone the path for me has dimmed considerably.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
CNY 2013! / Preparation for Valentine's Day
YEAH it's Chinese New Year!!
Hope you all had a great CNY day 1-3 people. Received many hong baos? :)
Chinese New Year has always been one of my favourite holidays due to the ang baos, new clothes (what's new I know) and goodies, but it has been becoming pretty stagnant lately.... (I can practically memorise the order of the events of each day since it has been happening for the past 17 years of my life. not gonna change any time soon).
On the eve of the eve of CNY, my classmates and I (erm, a precious portion of my classmates :D) went out (for a legit outing for once!). We initially wanted to catch Ah Boys to Men 2 but the times available were all sold out. So instead, we went to J Cube @ Dhoby Ghaut (brings back memories of when the sisters went to battle it out with pokemon cards haha) and two rounds of bowling. I personally had so much fun hanging out with them. It was so chill <3
Valentine's Day is coming up! Even though I don't have a boyfriend to celebrate it with, I really wanna do something for all my friends this year because honestly, they have given so much more to me than a lover ever could.
Hope you all had a great CNY day 1-3 people. Received many hong baos? :)
Chinese New Year has always been one of my favourite holidays due to the ang baos, new clothes (what's new I know) and goodies, but it has been becoming pretty stagnant lately.... (I can practically memorise the order of the events of each day since it has been happening for the past 17 years of my life. not gonna change any time soon).
On the eve of the eve of CNY, my classmates and I (erm, a precious portion of my classmates :D) went out (for a legit outing for once!). We initially wanted to catch Ah Boys to Men 2 but the times available were all sold out. So instead, we went to J Cube @ Dhoby Ghaut (brings back memories of when the sisters went to battle it out with pokemon cards haha) and two rounds of bowling. I personally had so much fun hanging out with them. It was so chill <3
Why the sad face, clar?
Smile!!
Nicole and Stuart :D (they looks rather stoic here 0.0)
The three boys. I can never stop laughing when they are together.
With The Cute One. LOL
My First OOTD! 'Angelicus'
Playsuit: The Editor's Market (im obssessed with that place)
Bag: Scape Underground one of the shops
Shoes: Germany 'Street' (thats the shop name)
Choker: Zara
Rings: Elitrend, Cineleisure, Korea.
I really wanted to try out a completely different look from my usual black and hence, this.
Angels and goddesses were my main inspirations for this look.
Even though it is a really sweet look but I wanted to retain some hints of elegance or I would have looked too out-of-character, so the clean lines of the playsuit and pointed pumps (I think) does the trick.
What do you think? :)
Day 1 of the actual CNY was pretty enjoyable because I got to dress up and eat to my heart's content. I'm starting to regret it coz I put on so much weight but that aside, it was an amazing day. The family started off the day with an awesome lunch whipped up by my Ah Ma and Gugu. Needless to say, it was scrumplicious. Then, I went home to get ready for visitations. It's pretty funny to see all the OOTDs flooding instagram. I guess CNY really does give people the excuse to dress up ;)
SUPER CUTE spongebob ang bao I got from my Aunt.
I was squealing when I received it, no kidding.
Giant prawns, abalone, promfret fish (or is it pomfret), braised pork and mushrooms, spinach and pig stomach soup with rice. Absolutely heavenly. I bet my aunt and granny woke up really early just to prepare this, so grateful.
-VISITATIONS-
With my cousin Alyssa! Even though she is Primary 6 this year, she is still so petite. I keep thinking that she is only primary 3.
You know why this dude has such a wide smile on his face? Coz his family members forced him to take a camwhore shot with me and he was SO SHY. Both of us found it so hillarious when I held up the camera. Oh and Ryan is only a year younger than me.
With my Dad!
His shirt was so bright, a butterfly flew around him thinking that his shirt was legit flowers and tried sucking pollen out of it. That moment....
With my awesome POR!
I mean, just look at my Dad's face.
With my aunt who is forever young 0.0
My second OOTD! 'Lady in Red'
Dress: Lot 1 (the boutique beside Cassis)
Shoes: Forever 21
Earrings: Diva
Hair Bow: Korea
Lips: Russian Red by MAC
I put SO much thought into this outfit that it almost distracted me from my everyday work.
I wanted to go with the red/pink/orange colour scheme because it would definitely stand out from the sea of red/black combos (for those who were actually wearing red!) but the stores I visited didn't sell what I was looking for (and believe me, I did my homework on it).
Even though I kind of expected it already, quite a number of people surprisingly didnt wear red or other citrusy colours. The creams were okay, but I couldnt fathom why people would wear black all over for CNY. Isn't it supposed to be inauspicious?
(Unless of course, they researched about the auspicious colour that they should wear on CNY and it happens to be black and blue. But not in the Pig's case)
I really wanted to break away from the cliche 'cheong-sam inspired' dresses that I have been seeing literally on almost every single blogshop I visited. The maroon/wine-red/burgundy colour scheme was getting really overused as well. (especially with the rise of the maroon skater skirts)
I turned to Madame Dita Von Teese for inspiration and decided to go for the vintage, old-hollywood look while still maintaining the colour scheme and this is what I got.
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Valentine's Day is coming up! Even though I don't have a boyfriend to celebrate it with, I really wanna do something for all my friends this year because honestly, they have given so much more to me than a lover ever could.
In preparation for Valentine's, I gotta think up of something really easy to make and make it in huge quantities, so I thought of baking cupcakes for everyone and decorate it. Really hope they like it!
Hmm, maybe I will do something a little extra for those who are REALLY important to me, as well as for my secret Valentine. (I wonder who is MY Secret Valentine, really hope he or she does something for me! But even if they don't its ok lol)
Here are a list of recipes that I am considering, which one do you guys think is the best?
Red Velvet Cheesecake Marbled Cupcakes
Not pretty but definitely delicious.
Strawberry Lemonade Cupcakes
Unique combination of flavours, and looks really good too!
Peach cupcakes with Peach Buttercream
I'm sure everyone loves peaches, RIGHT?
Brownie Cupcakes
Everyone's favourite.
Peach Bellini / Strawberry Champagne Cupcakes
It's pink, and it has liquor. Perfect combination for Valentine's Day.
Chocolate Cupcakes with Drunken Strawberry filling.
I may modify this recipe a little bit, I personally do not like white chocolate buttercream a lot.
So, which is your favourite recipe? :) You guys are gonna be eating this after all HAHA.
Hope you guys have a wonderful rest of the week, see you next time ;)
Friday, January 18, 2013
It's All Coming Back.
Sigh.
I wonder why these kinds of people even exist in the world.
I also wonder why there are others who will so readily believe such kinds of people.
The dream I had just two weeks ago portrayed what is happening to me right now
(only that reality isnt as vivd).
Some are being taken away from me so quickly, its quite scary.
My friends. Or at least, whom I thought were my friends.
Who do I trust?
Whose smiles are real?
These questions keep running through my head.
What ifs, what ifs.
I guess no matter how you behave, there are still gonna be detractors there to pull you down.
Quote Dita: You can be the ripest and juiciest peach in the world, but there is still someone out there who hates peaches.
I may be far from being an ideal peach but i give in my all.
Still, even in this situation I have the most amazing people to pull me out of misery.
Those who still trust in me.
Those who know me.
Those who care.
Ever grateful to them because they are the ones who matter.
Seriously, what is wrong with you?
To the point where you have to go around doing this kind of thing?
Well, it's okay if you do, just to let you know that you aren't any better.
Why dont you just stay as a fake prude like you always were?
Karma is a bitch, and I hope it works its magic on you soon.
And to those who believe in what you say,
I'm disappointed.
That's all.
I wonder why these kinds of people even exist in the world.
I also wonder why there are others who will so readily believe such kinds of people.
The dream I had just two weeks ago portrayed what is happening to me right now
(only that reality isnt as vivd).
Some are being taken away from me so quickly, its quite scary.
My friends. Or at least, whom I thought were my friends.
Who do I trust?
Whose smiles are real?
These questions keep running through my head.
What ifs, what ifs.
I guess no matter how you behave, there are still gonna be detractors there to pull you down.
Quote Dita: You can be the ripest and juiciest peach in the world, but there is still someone out there who hates peaches.
I may be far from being an ideal peach but i give in my all.
Still, even in this situation I have the most amazing people to pull me out of misery.
Those who still trust in me.
Those who know me.
Those who care.
Ever grateful to them because they are the ones who matter.
Seriously, what is wrong with you?
To the point where you have to go around doing this kind of thing?
Well, it's okay if you do, just to let you know that you aren't any better.
Why dont you just stay as a fake prude like you always were?
Karma is a bitch, and I hope it works its magic on you soon.
And to those who believe in what you say,
I'm disappointed.
That's all.
Yeah, you.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
2013, here I come.
Now that we have survived the apparent apocalypse, we have a whole new year to look forward to.
2013 will be a really big year for me. It is the year of my A levels, another prom year, and a whole other year of hell / fun depending on how i choose to spend my time.
Before talking about the new year, let's have a mini-reflection on the year 2012.
2012 was an unexpectedly good year for me.
I was thrown into a completely different environment when I first changed schools. I didnt expect much from anyone nor anything, and was planning to stay super low profile for the 2 years that I have in AC. However, after getting integrated into the school culture (which is super awesome), I found myself having many more friends and had a lot more fun than I have had in many years. Many ex-teachers and friends of mine have commented that I seem to be a lot brighter and happier now.
Mind you, JC1 life was not easy. The transition of workload from secondary 4 to JC 1 was really rocky for me, since I wasnt that used to the new school system, and the amount of work just generally doubled from the previous year. Constant stress from fierce madams also put me in a spot many times. However, this time, I had people to rely on, so my life was made much easier. Thanks to those who always guide me along for my school work!
Now that it is 2013, I am expecting my workload to be about one and a half times more than in JC1. I'm also really worried about my music practicals because I have kind of lost my passion for classical music in general, and seeing my peers doing so much better than me doesnt really help either. Having to incorporate practice into my daily schedule would be super hard.
Another thing that I am worried about is my social life in school. I wonder if everything will stay the same as last year. If it were to be that way, or get better, then I would have nothing to worry about. Just a little jittery....... (I had a super bad dream where my whole social life was destroyed by a single rumour spread by an ah lian. Woke up crying really badly. Just shows how easy good things can be taken away from you.)
Ultimately, I hope that I can do well for every single upcoming exam that I have and hopefully scrape my way through all the way to the end, and get a really good result for my A levels. That is the number one priority, after all, if I do not get the grades then I will not get the choice of university that I want.
New year means new resolutions, so once again, here they are:
1. Hand in all homework on time.
- This is always not perfectly fulfilled, so imma try my best this year to do it.
2. Reach 55 kg by next year.
- Includes gym regimens, diets etc etc. I guess this is the only way that I am ever gonna feel better about myself. (I felt stunning when I lost 5 kg in 2 mSetonths last year)
3. Practise my instruments for at least an hour every day.
- this is the exact same kind of resolution as the first one.
4. Celebrate my sisters' birthdays.
- Even with such a busy schedule, I'm hoping I can celebrate every single one of their birthdays, just because I ought to. Friendship takes effort, and I'm gonna put it in.
5. Get many (if not all) As for all my subjects for A levels.
- Call me mad but I really hope I can achieve this.
6. Set up a blogshop by the end of next year.
- I have already made preparations but it has been put on hiatus due to my A levels (lol As are screwing up my life)
7. Finish reading all my new books.
- I bought SO many books from the popular fair, it's so crazy. They were REALLY cheap, like 1-3 dollars for every book. The titles that I bought are really useful for me so I hope I can find the time to read them.
8. Constantly update a gratitude journal.
- I think this will make me a lot happier even during crappy days. Gonna dig out one of my awesome TYPO notebooks....
9. Go to a club.
- I cannot WAIT to go to one and observe the night life there. I think for me, it's not about the actual clubbing but more of 'studying' the place (for now), like the F&B, fashion, lighting, architecture and music. There is so much to learn.
10. Get into my dream university.
- SMU business or NTU mass communications, LETS GO!
This is just a very brief recap of my resolutions, I'm sure I will have more as the year passes, but for now its these 10.
Let's all hope that 2013 would be a great year for everybody! Peace~
2013 will be a really big year for me. It is the year of my A levels, another prom year, and a whole other year of hell / fun depending on how i choose to spend my time.
Before talking about the new year, let's have a mini-reflection on the year 2012.
2012 was an unexpectedly good year for me.
I was thrown into a completely different environment when I first changed schools. I didnt expect much from anyone nor anything, and was planning to stay super low profile for the 2 years that I have in AC. However, after getting integrated into the school culture (which is super awesome), I found myself having many more friends and had a lot more fun than I have had in many years. Many ex-teachers and friends of mine have commented that I seem to be a lot brighter and happier now.
Mind you, JC1 life was not easy. The transition of workload from secondary 4 to JC 1 was really rocky for me, since I wasnt that used to the new school system, and the amount of work just generally doubled from the previous year. Constant stress from fierce madams also put me in a spot many times. However, this time, I had people to rely on, so my life was made much easier. Thanks to those who always guide me along for my school work!
Now that it is 2013, I am expecting my workload to be about one and a half times more than in JC1. I'm also really worried about my music practicals because I have kind of lost my passion for classical music in general, and seeing my peers doing so much better than me doesnt really help either. Having to incorporate practice into my daily schedule would be super hard.
Another thing that I am worried about is my social life in school. I wonder if everything will stay the same as last year. If it were to be that way, or get better, then I would have nothing to worry about. Just a little jittery....... (I had a super bad dream where my whole social life was destroyed by a single rumour spread by an ah lian. Woke up crying really badly. Just shows how easy good things can be taken away from you.)
Ultimately, I hope that I can do well for every single upcoming exam that I have and hopefully scrape my way through all the way to the end, and get a really good result for my A levels. That is the number one priority, after all, if I do not get the grades then I will not get the choice of university that I want.
New year means new resolutions, so once again, here they are:
1. Hand in all homework on time.
- This is always not perfectly fulfilled, so imma try my best this year to do it.
2. Reach 55 kg by next year.
- Includes gym regimens, diets etc etc. I guess this is the only way that I am ever gonna feel better about myself. (I felt stunning when I lost 5 kg in 2 mSetonths last year)
3. Practise my instruments for at least an hour every day.
- this is the exact same kind of resolution as the first one.
4. Celebrate my sisters' birthdays.
- Even with such a busy schedule, I'm hoping I can celebrate every single one of their birthdays, just because I ought to. Friendship takes effort, and I'm gonna put it in.
5. Get many (if not all) As for all my subjects for A levels.
- Call me mad but I really hope I can achieve this.
6. Set up a blogshop by the end of next year.
- I have already made preparations but it has been put on hiatus due to my A levels (lol As are screwing up my life)
7. Finish reading all my new books.
- I bought SO many books from the popular fair, it's so crazy. They were REALLY cheap, like 1-3 dollars for every book. The titles that I bought are really useful for me so I hope I can find the time to read them.
8. Constantly update a gratitude journal.
- I think this will make me a lot happier even during crappy days. Gonna dig out one of my awesome TYPO notebooks....
9. Go to a club.
- I cannot WAIT to go to one and observe the night life there. I think for me, it's not about the actual clubbing but more of 'studying' the place (for now), like the F&B, fashion, lighting, architecture and music. There is so much to learn.
10. Get into my dream university.
- SMU business or NTU mass communications, LETS GO!
This is just a very brief recap of my resolutions, I'm sure I will have more as the year passes, but for now its these 10.
Let's all hope that 2013 would be a great year for everybody! Peace~
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