Inspiration Board

Just doing what I do best to get my mind off things...............

My inspirations for my prom outfit. You can pretty much guess what its gonna be like already.

DETAIL DETAIL DETAIL its all down to those nitty gritty parts that makes a whole difference.

Music is taking up a hell lot of time....

Still havent recovered emotionally..........

A levels is less than a month away.

WTF am I doing?

BITCH PLEASE (update)

You are just being fucking unreasonable man.

First you ignore me. Then you tell me you like another girl. Then you STILL continue talking to me like nothing's wrong.

If I dont have feelings for you anymore, then yeah we can be friends. But NO, I still do, and I am trying my so very hardest to forget. You talking to me like that, wanting to keep me by your side as a 'friend', that is way too selfish. Bastard.

Yeah I think I know who that girl is, a super gorgeous malay girl. Well, its okay if you choose her over me, I can see why as well. If thats the case, then please just continue chasing her and NOT SAY A SINGLE WORD TO ME OK? FUCKING ASSHOLE




*Update:

And you know what he said to me yesterday?

'Just because i called you hottie, you think im hitting on you?'

Well you fucking two-timing son of a bitch, out of my fucking life you go. Oh, and you came running back to me when that girl left you huh? Well look at me leave you right now. :D Karma actually helped me out right there! And patience is truly a virtue.... to leave someone at the lowest point of their lives.... what could be a better revenge than that?

You have NO ONE left by your side, and that is no one's fault but your own. Loser.

Thanks for all the memories, but now the painful ones have exceeded the happy ones.

Outfits / Life - What should I do at this point? (Update on both parts)

Well, what the title says. Just gonna be a breakdown on the few outfits I have worn the past week. Some of you might have already seen them on facebook.




Yee Hwa and I met up for Teacher's Day celebrations and right after that we headed back to my home for an impromptu modelling session, by the lift using an iPhone ;)

It was a pretty insightful experience for me as YH showed me all the different camera angles and how that makes a huge difference in how the photos turn out. And also, it was really comfortable as it was only the two of us there so we were less camera shy and more natural.
(My wardrobe was in a total mess after that though -.-)

The concept was on taking one piece of clothing and transitioning it from day to night. Mine was a lot easier to work with (black top) compared to Yee Hwa's (plaid skirt).


A few of my favourite shots (pardon the awkward facial expressions):

Day Shot for Theo - School

I look so long here. Hmm, what am I pondering about? 

Urgh the face. 

I could hardly keep my balance taking this shot, I was in the middle of walking then had to freeze.  

Night Shot for Theo - Clubbing

I wasn't looking at the floor initially but yh kept telling me to look down. 

Love how all the details of the outfit are shown so clearly.

Day Shot for Yee Hwa - School

Supposedly the playing-truant look

HER HAIR

Night Shot for Yee Hwa - Girl's Night Out

Only one shot for the girl coz the rest I took were simply awful. (this was the first time shooting for me)

I just realised that we are completely lacking of accessories except for the hat. Ah.

Now for the breakdown of my outfits.....
(not even gonna attempt to do Yee Hwa's because she's really Japanese while I'm really westernized.)

I somehow revived my love for the gothic culture recently after about a year and a half of separation from it.

It's strange that I can never really get away from the dark influences, perhaps it may be due to my star sign.

Following that, the two outfits I came up with was inspired by three subsets of goth fashion 

(Romantic, Cyber and Haute)  

First outfit:

Top - The Editor's Market

Skirt - Vintage (Scape Underground)

Bag - Korea 

Heels - Forever 21

Velvet Hair Bow - Korea

Lipstick - NYX Black Label Extreme Red (although I'm suspecting it might be Raisin, the cap aint accurate)

This outfit is super prim and proper, just the way I like it.

There's just something about vintage fashion that is so sophisticated... sexy but never ever trashy.

This is a pretty 1930s silhouette... I just wish the skirt were a little tighter around the waist.

Accessorising with the usual three items that you guys have seen over and over again makes the outfit more me.

Oh and yeah this is a day outfit to me. I'd probably get banged down by a car if I were to wear this at night, it's so dark. This colour combination is my go-to recently though, you can somehow never go wrong with navy and black together. (although so many people spout all sorts of nonsense saying that its boring)

Second outfit:

Top - same as previous

Velvet skirt - Bugis Street

Boots - hauteurbanstyle.com

Clutch - The Editor's Market

Lipstick - Bourjois Rouge Edition 07 Fuschia Graffiti

Whenever I think of clubs I always tend to gear towards upping the slut factor of my outfits a little, which is to show a lot of leg or a lot of arm. (never both at the same time)

Since I am really insecure about showing my fat ass arms, legs it is. 

This was mildly influenced by cyber goth fashion, still retains the dark colour palette (see a pattern there?) but with pops of bright colour (neon and fuschia). Plus, the metal detail on the boots are pretty stereotypical goth accessorizing.

Notice how much I love velvet? (or since I cant afford the real thing, FAKE velvet?)

It is one of those fabrics that instantly makes your look luxe without even having to spend much.

Moving on to an earlier outfit that I wore to the Piano Guys concert...

Regarding the concert, the guys were simply amazing! I had my doubts about them, wondering how they were going to keep the audiences' attention for one and a half hours by simply playing the pieces that fans were already so familiar with on youtube. 

Boy was I proven wrong.

They were not only stunning in their performance (which was filled with gimmicks and improvisations and most importantly, beautiful playing), but also a wicked sense of humour that kept us entertained all the way. I think they really deserved the double standing ovation they received at the end of the concert.

I think my favourite part was the incomplete mash-up between Don't Worry Be Happy and Phantom of the Opera, it was hillarious and yet so genius of them to come up with it. 

So for my outfit.... 

Haha.

Outift Details:

Top - Cotton On

Dress (worn as skirt) - Bugis Street

Bag - Steve Madden

Shoes - Mah trusty ol' Converse :)

Butterfly hair clip - Stolen from my mum

Lips - Revlon Lip Butter in Sorbet

Super girly outfit, I know. Probably because of my emotions then... which is kinda fading now... (I'll elaborate upon that later)

This is probably the cutest and girliest outfit that I'm ever gonna wear, and my inspiration for this outfit was my feelings. How a certain someone made me feel. Like a precious little princess who is sweet and kind to everyone else, and so delicate that she will break if you dont treat her right.

Anyway, the dress is actually a tube dress, which I think if I wore alone would make me be a whore101 so I decided to go back to my matchy-matchy styling from the concert season and threw on the mint green sweater. I think the different shades of green go well together, and the florals keep the outfit from being boring. Plus, they match my lips too.

Green x Pink - unexpected colour combination but yet totally works.

Ok this has absolutely no relation to outfits as in outfits, but i thought it should have a special mention. My dear Veronica and Yue Ning's souvenir from Aussie...... 

Thanks for the not-so-implicit gift guys.

I must say, it's really pretty haha.

Update part 1 - 

So I went to Trader's Hotel today for a lunch buffet with my mum, and boy did I enjoy myself.

The restaurant(?) is called Cafe Biz and its basically a shrunken version of The Line located at Shangri-La hotel. They had INDIAN FOOD, PANEER which was FREAKING AWESOME. Omg I missed Indian food so much, now that I finally had it I was just in high heaven. The beef and lamb deserve special mentions as well, they were so succulent and juicy. The dessert was amazing as usual. :) (food pictures on facebook)

As for my outfit...... 

Outfit details:
Top/Cardigan - My grandmother's (vintage Liz Claiborne)
Skirt - The Editor's Market
Bag - Princessess @ Scape Underground
Heels - Germany
Lips (wiped off) - Revlon Super Lustrous Kiss Me Coral

Again, another vintage look, this time in a 1940s silhouette, flat chest, squared shoulders and slightly flared midi skirt.
I thought I'd keep the colour palette super light with pastel pink, yellow and white, it suits the whole brunch idea.
My granny occasionally passes me hand-me-downs from my great-aunt or herself and I love picking out the pieces that I like and making it modern. The material and cut of the clothes are impeccable.
NEVER KNEW HUH ok ill stop

Part 2 - The emo stuff

Well.... I have been seeing him less and less often.... and he hasnt been contacting me either, except for a few rare occasions. I dont know what changed. It was after the Phuket trip that he started becoming distant. I understand that he is under a lot of stress (or so it seems) from his work and hence his behaviour, but how long am I willing to put up with it? I'm not even sure whether I should shed any tears. Whether it is worth it. It is so confusing. He shows that he cares, and you can tell that he does. But while distance makes the heart grow fonder, time numbs those feelings, and there cant be any relationship without actual physical communication. Our relationship is pretty much handing by a thread right now.

I have so much to thank him for. The first guy to make me feel appreciated. The first guy to make me feel like I'm beautiful. Patient and gentlemanly and caring, and did so much for me while thinking that he didnt do anything. But it is so different now, and I'm really afraid. Is he really busy or has he gotten tired? My insecurity builds up every day, and I occasionally try to tell him about it but he is already plagued with enough worries.... he doesnt need to be burdened with mine. Now when I see him, he is more like a stranger, polite and upright, like how he was last year, as compared to the guy who teased me to no end just 3 weeks before. I think im getting more and more annoying too. Dont know, just a gut feeling.

We are also both at a point where we arent ready for a relationship, even if we have feelings for each other. I have my As and he has his course plus job to juggle, and I wouldnt be surprised if he met someone else who has the same aspirations as him there and fell for her instead. We are so different. But we are both heading towards the same direction, so I guess thats something to be hopeful about.

I dont think I did anything wrong, neither did he. Things just changed. Should I wait, or should I let go? 

He doesnt have anything to say to me...... Is that a good thing or a bad thing? 

He says he's tired all the time. Of his work? Or me?

Urgh. So many questions and no answers.

Well, I'm not gonna give up without a fight. The last thing I'm going to do.... its either gonna push the relationship forward or be my final parting gift. 

His words brought to life.

Ain't the bear cute?

I wish I could read people's minds, really. Whatever they are thinking, good and bad. I'd probably have very few friends by then LOL but I think its worth it.


Update part 2 - Well, I managed to pass it to him today and he was touched. Thats a good sign haha. And he called me a great friend. (Wow thanks I was friendzoned right there). But he has already made it clear right from the start that we should take things slow for now. That long sms made me feel appreciated, so thats enough for me :) My decision now is to wait a little longer. Until then...

Taking things slow

Hey guys, just a shirt update.

I'm glad to say that I have finally found someone I like and who feels the same way about me :)

I was really surprised because even though the signs were there, I wasn't expecting anything to come out of it. (Read the signs wrongly before, didn't wanna make the same mistakes again)

He's the first guy to make me realise what truly liking someone means. It isn't about what the other person can do for you, or how being with them can elevate your status, but more of what you can give to the other person and cherishing the moments we have together.

All my past crushes were all about me fantasising about the possibility that we could get together some day and have an amazing relationship. Little did I realise that I was holding unrealistic expectations for them and for myself. Now that I'm finally experiencing mutual feelings, I'm starting to see how different it really is.

However, I'm also beginning to see why pretty girls don't really like it when people call them hot or pretty and get confessed to based on that. It is as if the guy is unable to look beyond your looks and body, and once that is gone, he would move on to the next one and not care about you anymore. That is my current fear, and I hope it doesn't happen.

I guess the way to go about this is not hold any expectations and take things as they come, that way, no one will get hurt.

He's now gone for a week, it hasn't even been a full day yet and I already miss him. Sigh, Theodora B you are so hopeless.



Love you guys, best of luck for your exams, it's tough but I'm sure y'all can do it! :) ciao~

50 Facts About Me

Doing this because I'm sick of work and also probably because I am narcissistic.


1. My name is Theodora Boo Lin Lin

2. Birthday: 2 Nov 1995

3. Horoscopes would be Scorpio for Western and Pig for Chinese.

4. Most common nicknames are Theo and 500 (coz of my chinese name)

5.  I have lost 8kg since last year (YES!) - I feel pretty incredible now but of course I wanna lose more. Won't stop till I reach my goal.

6. I am a hopeless romantic.

7. I have a really bad sweet tooth. (in fact I can live off sweets and desserts without eating any proper food.... candy floss anyone?)

8. I am an asian tea person. I dont know why but I just think asian teas are so much more delicious than Western teas even without sugar.

9. I travel overseas a lot, about once or twice a year. It's my favourite (and most expensive) past time. :P However I havent been able to travel lately due to exams.

10. I dont have a particular genre preference of music. It is more of whether I can relate to the song or if the melody is heart-wrenching/catchy.

11. I'm a closet otaku HAHA - Prince of Tennis, Yugioh, Fairy Tail and Kaichou wa Maid Sama are my tops, in that order.

12. I often give up on my books halfway. A really terrible habit that im trying to cure.

13. I'd prefer to stay in Singapore climate than live in somewhere with four seasons, even though I love snow. (people just don't realise how miserable it can be when the temperature turns negative)

14. Biggest pet peeve - people going into the room, fart, and going out again.

15. Windows user all the way! xD

16. My most memorable trip overseas would be to Egypt, especially the cruise. The most incredible things happened there and I enjoyed myself tremendously.

17. I dont carry conversations well with people, not even with good friends, because I really have nothing to talk about. That's why I really appreciate people who ask many questions (appropriately of course), then I can answer them.

18. Tom and Jerry is by far my favourite childhood cartoon.

19. My ideal complexion would be the porcelain vampire-pale skin.

20. I have no idea what LOTR is about. Even though I watched the movie, I cant remember becuase that was about more than 10 years ago.

21. I'm nocturnal.

22. I have high alcohol tolerance.

23. My bedroom is always in a perpetual mess, no matter how many times I clean it up.

24. I'm a lippie junkie. Ever since I got into makeup my lipstick collection ballooned super fast.

25. I'm 165cm, and I love my height. It is the perfect height for an Asian imo.

26. The guys I really fall for are worlds apart from those I admire.

27. I hate blush.

28. I hate cockroaches and lizards. They are the most disgusting creatures ever.

29. On the other hand, I find Arachnids, beetles and snakes fascinating. They have a sort of regal air to them that I really admire.

30. My favourite flower is the rose (though I am not really interested in gardening)

31. I love anything that has to do with water (except drowning).

32. I used to be really afraid of 'the dark side' until I came across Marilyn Manson. That guy changed my perspective on so many things.

33. I can't stick to just one interest forever, I constantly change my favourites.

34. That being said, my passion is unchanging. Fashion that is.

35. I am very objective when it comes to judging people. I see both people's good points as well as flaws equally, regardless of whether the person is a friend or enemy, unpopular or popular  (this is a very dangerous trait)

36. I mentally count the number of chews I take whenever I'm eating.

37. I stayed in the same house all my life.

38. I only use black pens to do my work. It somehow always comes out looking more professional. only under dire circumstances do I use blue pens.

39. I'm always secretly jealous of people who are naturally popular or people who have already found their significant others. Adds on to my insecurity.

40. I used to be really straightfoward to the point of being blunt about my feelings towards things, but ever since secondary school I have learnt to shut myself up when I dont have anything nice to say.

41. I really love it when karma hits those people who hurt me in the past.

42. I hate jeans and pants.

43. I fantasize about happy things all the time, thats what I usually do when you guys see me space out.

44. Mulan and Pocahontas are my fave disney princesses.

45. I still play neopets.

46. I have never had a boyfriend. #4everalone

47. Im usually lazy but become very hardworking just to prove people wrong. (or when I like what im doing)

48. I always put on a calm exterior even when Im extremely worried, upset or angry. so good that mask is even my friends are fooled. (however this mask is slowly slipping away when i get mad)

49. biggest turn on: perfectly proportioned, lean and toned bodies.

50. I havent completely given up on the human race yet ;)


 ok back to work haha (I dont think anyone would even read this properly)                                                                      

Life so far / Inspirations

Yo guys just a short update :)

Exams (or at least 3/4 of it) are freaking FINALLY over!! I am so amazed that I managed to survive this week, especially with H3 and free compo due and three papers (lit and music together zzz).

I'm gonna go to the gym more often during the June hols coz I havent been working out and I feel so fat x.x


I went into a semi-depressed state (like actual depression, not those emo for no reason kind) in my last post and it lasted for a good two weeks before I managed to recover the most part of my sanity before the exams, which is really great. All credit to my friends, because without them then I wouldnt have had the support nor the reason to continue smiling, so thanks guys :) (you know who you are)

June is gonna be a real busy month even though there are no real lessons. Prep for artikulation, studies and the numerous concerts (omg my money fly) are enough to fill the month, not to mention the various outings that MIGHT happen haha.

Just had the awesomest talk with Goh Qian this afternoon about the most random stuff, never knew we had that much to talk about! She introduced the hot and cold fry concept to me, gonna use it very often in the future HAHA. Love that girl.

It is unbelieveable how almost half a year has gone, and my life as an ACJC student will come to an end just like that. I have SO MUCH to be grateful for after entering this school, I dont wanna let it go so soon T.T more on that later when the time ACTUALLY comes. :(






Here are my current inspirations for this year. If you follow me on instagram you would have already seen this, but I wanna elaborate a little more as to why these nine special ones are chosen.

These following people are so confident of themselves and individualistic and most of all, successful. (I'm striving to emulate or develop every single quality they have right now, and they are my driving forces behind not only my determination for As but also my personality, image and even my future):

1. Dita von Teese - femininity, sensuality, glamour, individuality, multi-faceted, independence, strength, elegance.

2. Jaden Smith - talent, determination, perseverance, sensibility, maturity (that all teens should have, myself included)

3. Adam Lambert - open-mindedness, talent, humility, determination, individuality, strength, warmth, charity

4. Chanel Iman - charity, beauty, talent, success. (well basically most models are like that but Chanel is one of the youngest supermodels in the industry and plus she is black and faces racism A LOT. to become that well known in such a short amount of time is an amazing feat)

5. Coco Chanel - Elegance, sophistication, individuality, milestone, timelessness, forward-looking, modernity, feminism, creativity.

6. Matt Bomer - Beauty (HAH), bravery, success

7. Sophia Amoruso - Success, entrepreneurship, individuality, forward-looking, intelligence, ruthlessness.

8. Yunho - humility, perseverance, determination, charity, strength, warmth.

9. Marilyn Manson - open-mindedness, individuality, intelligence, creativity.

10. (special mention) Angelina Jolie - Bravery, charity, sexuality, kindness, success, talent. (didnt think of her initially because I dont really follow hollywood actors/actresses)    

As you can see they have many overlapping qualities. I like many seemingly 'different' types of artistes/public figures, but in the end they all somehow embody the same kind of qualities that I strongly believe in. I'd probably axe out Matt Bomer and replace him with someone else though (any suggestions?), coz I realised that the main reason why I admire him is because he is so incredibly good looking.

Who are your inspirations? I really wanna know, so maybe posted it up on your blogs or post a comment down below so I can read it :)

Buck up, Pathetic One.

Today must be the shittiest day of 2013 that I have had so far. All negative emotions came crashing upon me at once and it is not at all pleasant to experience.


Why is it that the person who's smile and laugh that I loved and appreciated so much, along with his amazing friends, suddenly reflect the sneers and sniggers of the people who made my life miserable in the past? Maybe it's my fault that he treats me this way, because now that I think about it, I have been acting in the exact same way to him, but the only difference is mine was out of joy and fear. Liking someone who treats you this way is really painful. It happened to me before, but I guess my heart will never learn.

How I wish I had a longer attention span. Or at least have the ability to bullshit my way through things. What happened during class today was just outright humiliating. I just gave everyone the impression that I was some mute dumbass who is awful at her work. OF COURSE no one would like anybody who is a dumb and plain person with no particular special quality whatsoever.


What I used to look forward to so eagerly in the past, I now dread.


My terms results are wayyyyyyyy far from ideal. I mean, 29/100 isnt justifiable,even if its a music paper. 17/55 for econs even though I studied like heck for it isnt very encouraging either. It just makes me question myself: What the fuck are you doing?


It is time to prioritize properly, since what had shone the path for me has dimmed considerably.